2005-09
28

Graceful Hands

By xrspook @ 17:55:50 归类于: 想当年的作业

From the characteristic meaning of graceful have two sides, complete with showing a pleasing beauty of form, movement or manner and pleasing in both style and attitude. I think this two meaning are suitable at Section A. The hands of the old woman not only have a graceful hand from outside, and her heart is also graceful.

Graceful appear two times at this essay. First, in the Para gage 6. At that situation, the medical worker providing the normal treatment to the ill, after doing that, she find out the "graceful hands" of the old woman. Because the fingers of the ill were long thin, just like some people who play music and did a lot of housework (in my opinion). So after that, the writer thought about the old woman's family. Maybe from the hands, the writer thought the ill must be an elegant woman when she was young, and then wonder why there's not anyone care about her and watch her at that moment. The writer began to feel a little pity to the patient.

Just at that time, Mrs. Clark as a mind reader that blew away the cloud of the medical worker that tells her the truth, which her family was not beyond her. It is the first time, the ill use some way to communicate with the writer. From that time, they began to intercommunicate nonverbal but through the feeling of two hands and the eyes contract between them. The writer learned a lot from that "talking".

After the ill died, the writer began to have some emotional battle inside. She knew that the reason why the old woman did not allow her family to spend the last moment with her was that she did not want to spare the pain of her passing to her family. Even though she must leave, she also had a good heart that want the remain person can feel more happy. The kind of decision is graceful. No one want to die alone, however, for not to make her family feel painful the old woman choose the quite way to die with a changer who she just met for a short time. God bless her, she chooses a hard way for herself, but thinking about other most of time. Such angle like woman, wasn't she graceful? The writer could not be influential from her. In addition, this was just part of truth about the ill, and the others were shown out after two days.

The writer found the patient was not only thinking about others at the end of her life, but also doing such graceful thing all her life. She was mother of seven, grandmother of eighteen, an active member of her church, a leader of volunteer association in her community, a concert piano player, and a piano teacher for over thirty years. No wonder her hands was so long and thin, because she was a great mother, grandmother, piano player and piano teacher.

How the writer can't be moved by this?!

When I met the title –graceful hand– for the first time, I thought it must be a story talking about why there's graceful hand and how it was. But after reading, I realized it's more than that. I even feel a little pressure and sad after reading. The old woman was really a great angle, the angle with graceful hand that her hand was healing all the sin all her life. She selected to die silence instead of with her family because she didn't want to spare her family the pain of her passing, and she would rather suffer all things by herself and maybe with the stranger. However, there's an antinomy in my stomach, why such a great person should die alone, she should accept all the admire from others. She must be a well known woman, however the end of her life was as common as others, I think she did deserve of this. Yet all things have two sides, we can't benefit them at one time.

After reading this, I think a lot. I compare myself with her, what will be when I am dying? Can I make such graceful decision?

2005-09
28

不是“可有可无”!

By xrspook @ 17:52:33 归类于: 烂日记

一年一度的运动会又来了,又是“挖”人报项目的时候,人人都不愿意,这个现象从初中到高中再到大学都是如此,不过以前有老师的强硬责任制,所以不管你愿意不愿意都是没有区别的,只要你没有报,最后的结果就是你要出现在比你想像更恐怖的项目上,所以根本就无法逃脱。

本人一向是积极分子。自己本来看上去就“恐武有力”,我不上,谁上?况且,我从来都没想过自己要逃避。我为什么要逃避?我是这个班的一员,代表这个班去参赛是我的荣誉,我也有很强的为班增光的进取心。自己有能力在某些项目上称雄,我为什么不去。当然这其中也是因为自己的一点虚荣心。其实自己很久以前就想在某个项目上夺冠,但,这种事情自从小学后就没有发生过。

铅球是我的传统项目,对女生来说,铅球可以说是最舒服的项目,就把球扔出去,然后扔3次就好了。每次运动会我都会毫不犹豫参加这个项目,但我的出发点不是因为这个项目最“轻松”,我真的把它当作一个竞技项目,一个我可以好好发挥,甚至夺取名次的项目。我的出发点和很多人都是不同的,她们只为舒服,而我则是因为我知道那是我的强项,我要有所发挥,为了我自己,为了班,或者更大一点,为了学院。我不知道不认识我的人,听到我在运动会报铅球会有什么反应,是不是觉得我想“偷懒”?我根本不用介意他们的任何“想法”,我觉得自己的动机是完全正确的,比那些要入党的同学的入党动机还要正确,所以,我问心无愧。

如果说铅球是个“很”轻松的项目,其实也不然。在乎你怎么看这个“铅球比赛”。如果只是初赛,那么扔3个球就结束了。接着就可以以运动员的身份享有一切。只是把那个5kg的球拿住然后扔出去,整个过程还不到5分钟,多么之“轻松”啊!但在这轻松的背后,我要付出多少,你又知道吗?没有人会想到铅球比赛之前的付出,因为在很多人的眼力,铅球根本就不用做准备,因为那是“可有可无”的。

记得在高三的时候,我最后一个在高中参加的运动会。我也是参加了传统项目——铅球。为了要在最后的运动会给自己留下一个好的结果,给班争取一个好的成绩(因为那时我的班的竞争对手班真的好强,我必须超水平发挥……),在快要比赛的一个星期,我开始去做那些只有男生做的东西——举重。当年的体育办公室门口放着几个举重用的东西。把那个东西扛在背上做下蹲,每天30个,然后直臂曲臂也30个(第一天是各50的,结果就是第二天浑身不自在,无论是腰还是背都超有问题,不过手臂却一点不痛)。如此坚持了一个星期。要做到这些,连男生也未必做到。我不知道那样做有没有用,不过依照我依稀的记忆,小学的时候老师也曾经是这样训练的。我完全可以不练习,但我逃不过自己良心的责备,我不做不行,我的班需要我那些一点点的分数。跑步不是我的强项(短跑还可以,长跑就……虽然短跑可以考试100,不过,运动会没有50米,而且强人强得是无法理解的),我只有在这传统项目上尽我一点的心意。最终的结果也好险。有分数的有前八,我排在第7,我的好朋友,以前的同班同学排在第6(我和她都是这个项目上的老对手,老朋友了)。记得高一的时候我排第8,她排第9,最后的比赛,是她赢了我“一点点”。虽然和冠军相差好远,不过我已经尽力了,没有什么好后悔的。那是我到那时为止最努力练习的一次……

运动会是要靠大家公共参与的。根本无所谓谁行谁不行,难道叫那个行的人参加所有的项目,而其他人就做自己爱做的东西,比如说复习书本,或者干脆在睡大觉?不是这样的,我们要有的是一点点心意,无论成绩如何,冠军只有一个,参与,曾经努力比什么都重要。

所有人,所有这个班的人都是十分重要的,绝对不是“可有可无”!!!不要小看自己,自己不是大赛的英雄,但自己可以超越自己,做自己的饿英雄,为自己的未来无悔而努力!还记得“超人”(老师的名字)有句话,我清楚记得“你什么时候都可以请假,但运动会的时候就绝对不行,你死也要死在那里!”

我觉得对于集体的事就应该那——“死也要死在那里”!!!!

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