我的天

这两天一直在听着这个组合一首叫做Rosas的歌，是因为前两天有位叫做Dylis在我这里留言然后我就去了客人的Sigue los caminos…… ，就听到了Rosas。挺好的，大家也听听：la_oreja_de_van_gogh-rosas.mp3 其实，我根本就没有欲望要弄懂它到底在唱什么，好听就是了，需要把歌词弄的100%明白吗？能从歌曲中感受到轻松和快乐，还不够吗？如果要100%明白，那么我们这些small potato就别想去听歌剧了……

这两天人懒懒的什么都没干似的。快五一了，难道假期综合症那么快就来了？还是我已经有点习惯了之前几个星期的超级紧张？

有时真的不知道今天该写些什么，不能抱怨老师，也不能说同学坏话，对天气不满可能也有客人说我该乐观面对生活……哎~~~~~~~我还能写什么？怎么那么多限制啊！！！！！！我是个喜欢评论的人，散文是我的超级弱项，记叙文我会口齿不清……让我感受生活的美好吗？但我根本就是在不快乐之中度过怎么个装出来的快乐？每天都在为着那些论文那些乱七八糟的作业还有那个好像离我不远的CET-4烦恼，我也不知道天天在做什么。我的梦想到底是什么？我到底要做个怎样的人？没有目标的日子就在得过且过，浪费时间。

懒懒的老想睡觉，睡觉的时候沉沉的，老在做梦。梦里都游云好多地方好多人了，有面试的，有恐怖事件的，有普通上课的。在半睡半醒的时候就要爬起来去上课，于是一天就在混日子。上课听课的时候异常专著，因为老师说的我都明白，一些实操果的实验和实习我的感受特别深刻，全部一点就进脑子了，但除此以外其他的时间灵魂就似乎和肉体分离，不知道自己在做什么，不知道自己在写什么，不知道，不知道……

懒懒的我，像梦游一样写完了今天的了……

这是从SDOS下载的一篇英文论文，题目是；热带水果中维生素C含量的测定方法研究（我翻译的，很不完善，不要见怪）

文献检索考试马上就来了，流言飞来飞去，要这样考，要那样考，传得到处都是。但有一点是绝对不会变的——老师要考试不是故意要为难我们，为什么要开文献检索这课程完全是为了我们以后做科学研究，或者说得不那么夸张，是为了我们以后能有更多招数对付我们的论文而设置的。是个十分十分实用的科目。这相比我们的专业课和基础课难度可以说是直线下降，但很多人却在课上自己说自己的，于是什么都没听到，或者知识坐在那里发呆，浪费每次2个45min（不知道为什么下载的期刊论文表示分钟和小时都是用min和h，于是我也很自觉地把这个当做个习惯了）的课程。到了实习就全乱套了。

中文的也许有的人还可以蒙混过关，但英文的简直好像要他们某些人上吊了。除了有好多好多不懂的单词，还有很多很多因为没有听课而不知道的技巧，加在一起不去上吊还能做什么。对于那些搜索出来一堆的外文很多人无所适从，无从下手。特别是在SDOS系统，没有用高亮表示出搜索中了的词语，的确有些麻烦，但要在一句只会一些介词和连词的专业文献里找自己要找的东西其实也挺难和挺容易的。首先，因为一个句子除了上述说的两种词语就是你要找的那些词你能看懂，于是就省却了好多琢磨的时间，你不知道那个蔬菜或者水果是什么，你不知道它在写某个脂肪还是蛋白质的名字，但你需要知道这些吗？一个单词，你已经认出了它的词根，它是动词、名词还是形容词你有必要了解得如此清楚吗？也许，在真正琢磨文献的时候我们必须了解，但对于只是搜集信息的我们只需要知道个一点点就好了。它是determine, determined等等我们都不需要了解，一个determin$(FSTA)或者一个determin*（SDOS）就代替了。它们的某个相同或相近的意思就是“测定”，其它的我不管。在FSTA看那些英文的我从来不觉得是个折磨，FSTA（OVID系统）有用红色把搜索命中的词标记出来，感觉和在Google搜索一样，而且比Google方便多了，因为我可以用各个技巧的东西把要搜索的词语联系起来达到我要达到的效果。也许是我习惯找一些我根本不知道是什么的东西了，比如说用Google搜索西班牙语的资料。所以看到那些一堆堆砌起来的专业英语我根本无所谓畏惧，让风雨来得更猛烈些吧！即使那样，也没关系。

喜欢FSTA，这也应该是最最权威的外文食品“伙伴”。

This is high pressure steam sterilizer, which I have to use in sterilizing during the biology class. This one seemed better than ours in SCAU microbiology lab. Next time I must write down where they came from and how long have they served. The shape and the color are terrible, and the method of using they are also out of date. The way you operate most of them is a manual work, at first you should control when to deflate that’s because we must sure the air in the sterilizer have gone and there’s only vapor inside, in this way, we can make the temperature in 0.105MPa is 121℃, and just in this temperature the microbe would die.

This morning, our teacher asked my partner to look after the sterilizer and service for all classmates. I don’t know why the teacher ask nobody but her to finish such kinds of mission, maybe our teacher really hope all the people in his class can earn something useful after that. However, my partner went to search her information about her searching class, and I became the one beyond the sterilizer and worked for my class. I’d happy to do that, yet, maybe I have done a wrong thing, for I robbed the opportunity of others which they would reap something. Maybe sterilizing with that antique was very boring, nevertheless, it control the result of all the experiment. Though doing this seems waste of our time, and if nobody did it how our experiment could continue. I don’t think I could be careless in this process, in hence, I did this thing again and again.

Some of my classmates don’t like microbiology experiment, but can anyone tell me what’s wrong with it? Why can’t they enjoy when they have a good teacher? I have the same feeling just as the essay I have written yesterday about my chemistry teacher in middle school.

I am not the God, and even though I’m the God I can’t control the feeling of others. They have their freedom to decide what their favor is, the only thing I could do was give them some suggestion. Why not enjoy the experiment, though some processes of them are really boring. In my opinion, once the first step you walk on the road of science, you should know clearly that you should have preparation for doing some boring thing and repeat the same step again and again with no result.

Now, I have been ready!

今天的英语模拟题有是一塌糊涂，不知道什么时候我才可以在做完题目的时候显得很自信。1个半小时下来结果是像打仗那样，什么都不够时间。我慢了好多了吗？记得高考的时候我还有很多时间剩下啊！但现在，简直就是乱来。阅读我只用了30分钟，词汇更是只用了15分钟，最后的那个作文前的题目也不过不够15分钟，怎么我的时间就不够用呢？是听力占去我太多的时间？但那个听力听写的题目，那些根本写不完的句子不花那么一点时间根本无法完成。天啊！实在太折磨人了。

下午上完英语就赶去上教三去上食品化学，那已经是我们今天的第3、4节的食品化学了，因为上个星期五老师没空，所以课调到了今天。化学，又是化学，从初中开始我就没有停止过化学。还记得当年有人问我化学是什么，我的回答是：几种溶液混合在一起会变色的，那就是化学。现在回想起来那个回答好像真的好幼稚，但也反应了一定的真理。在小脑袋中那些穿着白大褂的人手里那着试管倒来倒去，然后那些东西就变色了……

可以说从我刚入门开始到现在教我化学的老师几乎都无可挑剔，都是好老师。比遇上的那些物理老师好多了。初中的化学老师是个中年伯伯，他写的字好特别，每次他用过的粉笔都好像被刀削过一样，而他的笔记好整齐，当时，抄他的笔记简直是种享受。还记得妈对我说她当年喜欢抄她语文老师的笔记是因为她老师的字漂亮，我当时也似乎因为这样。直到现在，我的“气”字头的字都依然有老师的风格。他的笔记我是最用心抄的，用的是最好的笔记本，还有一定是纯黑色的水笔。因为他教学很认真，我很崇拜他，无论是谁的作业，他都很认真地批改，即便是抄的那些定义他也能认真地检查，连漏了什么他也一定为学生补上。我的作业本他的字迹不多，而那些成绩越差的同学的作业本就越多他的笔迹。他向来用广州话上课，即便是有市里来的老师听课的时候也是广州话，我从来没有听过他说普通话。还记得那些他用日历抄的一片片的笔记。那些有规律的图表他都抄好了，那些用毛笔抄的笔记，那些很有特色的笔画我还深深地记在心中。当然还有老师慈祥的笑容。他话不多，但上课的时候该说该做的他都说了、做了。改作业的态度更是无懈可击。什么是好老师，他就是一个榜样。但直到他退休他也当不了高级老师，依然是二级老师，原因是那些参加教师评估的学生觉得他只是个次课老师，而且上课很罗嗦，所以每次打分都打不高。真的有点过意不去，一个好老师却有如此的遭遇，我也觉得心理不平衡……中考的时候我选择的是化学（化学、物理二选一），当时我努力地去做题为的不是自己，为的是他，我要为他争一口气，我的目标是高分，甚至是满分，但，我做不到，虽然我已经尽力了……

中考是化学，高考也是化学……

现在也是化学，未来也离不开化学，我注定要跟化学在一起了。

I don’t know what I should put as the title picture today, so now I choose nothing instead.

Before today, I had known it must be a hard time, because we should spend more than 10 hours in it. We had heard that the experiment of the competitive one of Food Chemistry was terrible than any one we had met. The experiment started at 8:30 AM, and after about 5:00 PM, our team finished and left that horrible place. Even at that time, there were still some groups continuing their experiment. Yet it has better than I thought, at least we could come back to dormitory before the sunset. We never stopped for a minutes except having our lunch.

This is the only way if you want to do something in science. You should have competition with time, once you lose the best time; you have lost the whole battle.

The teacher is a male. For the first sight, I felt he just liked a father, and don’t know how to express him very well, maybe that’s because he was not good at speaking mandarin as my father’s level. He said a lot at the very beginning, and many people almost fell asleep during that time, however, I didn’t. What he had said was useful, nevertheless, my classmates haven’t paid attention to, and I felt a little regret for them. They really let a good chance went pass by them.

Today I realized fishy smell that I never felt when I was eating in the past. That kind of smell I won’t’ forget all my life. When I was doing the grinding, the fishy smell rushes into my nose and chisel in my brain. How terrible smell it was!

In short, even though it was a little hard and tired for me, yet I really reaped meaningful experience from such kinds of experiment.