我的天

This afternoon, I was absolutely desperate after consulted with a teacher. She pulled down almost all we had done before, in her professional opinion, we are wrong from the very beginning, and we should not have such idea that she thought its idealism. We just senior, have three years experience in university, and just met microbes less than two years, yet she are almost or already together with that thing more than thirty years. The plan of us didn’t hold water in front of her, but it doesn’t mean we never clearly think about it before, instead, I did spent plenty of time, many sleepless night to polish our plan. If I have never hard working before, I won’t so desperate now. It seemed she had destroyed everything – our plan and my heart.

There’s nothing wrong with her, so my tutor, and even me, yet it must be some gray area among us. I was so stupid that I could not persuade her to accept my idea. I’m not wrong totally, however, the qualitative thought of her dominated many things, unless I took out some evidence to proof myself. She said I confused her, so she couldn’t understand what I really what to do. I was also astonish when we began our topic because all the process just liked we lose faces on our own initiative. Nobody would expect this terrible thing. Beyond all doubt, I was the absolutely loser of this meeting.

On my way home, I soliloquized all the time, sometimes singing, or talking, fortunately, there were rarely people on the road. After about two hour, I calmed down at last. I don’t like make anything excuse for myself, I confessed our plan really had shorts, and I have tried my best to overcome it, but no resulted, we had to lay it down. I felt a little innocent, even the experienced professional couldn’t give us any advice, and how we green hand could solve it perfectly by ourselves? The microbial teachers in college are professionals in their fields, maybe good at bacteria, yeast or actinomyces and so on. Unite them together, it must be a strong team, however, there are also blank areas among them. I just fell in to that helpless place, one of them thought another knew much about something, but in fact another was not so omnipotence in that field. Oh, what should I do?

Sometimes I feel I’m a homeless child, don’t belong to here and there, and was alone all the time. Yesterdays, I learnt a new word – extraterrestrial, you could explain in a very simple word – alien. The student cross subjects are very difficult.

I’m just an ordinary man could do ordinary thing, thus it is necessary for me to have a breath and dream. As the custom of xrspook, I won’t give up, even after a really huge strike. There must be a way, and the hope is out there.

My tutor and my teammates, we should trust each other, I believe there must be a way out.

Soybean is a very ordinary farm product in China, so we have many ways to cook it. A few thousand years ago, we Chinese invented a soybean food – tofu, however, the name of such food was named not by Chinese but Japanese. They learned the method of making this from China and carried forward it to all over the world.

Milk is daily food in Europe; as a result, they also know how to change the shape of milk to create more other dairy. Cheese is one of most famous dairy around the world, and it’s the favor of many foreigners, and the necessary of their life.

Yesterday, Dr. Aimin Jiang presentated a livestock product class for us. He is a famous profession in this area, so in my opinion, half of the class he just showed off himself, yet if I were he, I have confident to make a parade too. He said the Cheese made in China must be better than which are made in Canada. For China has a long history of Cheese making (exactly I should say we have abundance experiment in tofu making), however, Canada just has about one hundred years’ history. Without doubt, we should be good in making Cheese. [xrspook：I just repeated the words by Dr. Jiang.]

Dr. Jiang said the most core technology of tofu and cheese is coagulating the casein in soybean-milk and milk. We use different technique to achieve this coagulate. I’m not familiar to cheese at all, even don’t know what is the exactly taste of traditional cheese, yet I have eaten many kinds of tofu. I believe, with such basic, Chinese could do a good job in cheese making, but we need more time to grope. In cheese’s field, we are just green hands now.

One thing I still wonder, the consumption of milk in China is still growing; the average of milk consumption is very low. Do we really have so many milk to make superior cheese to satisfy a small amount of wealthy and foreigners who live in China? Ten ton milk just could condense one ton cheese, as the separate of the whey cheese boost its price sharply too.

I’m not a professional in livestock product, yet I know in some technical degree, Chinese tofu are similar to foreign cheese, but they are still different food from shape, odor, flavor and custom, so they are not identical forever.

Today is mid-autumn day; however, it’s raining now, so I think the moon won’t come out tonight. No matter could see the really moon or not, it must a very important day in China. This year, I prefer to stay here, in my university, with classmates spending the special night. It’s the first time I shared such moment with them and it maybe the last time I have this chance for I’m senior now, next year we will leave in our own directions – continue study as postgraduates, hard working in new jobs, work for government, go to aboard and so on. Once we are lucky man that we meet each other among thousands of millions of billions of people. The day before, I don’t know why I choose stay here instead of going home, but now I finally understand friendship of schoolmates is the most important theme for now.

As custom, we eat mooncake today, of course including a lot of other food, such as different kinds of fruit and snack (for example: chestnut). There are many different style mooncake you could choose, for instant, with one salt yolk, with two, or even three or four. Yolk in mooncake represent the moon, the yolk of yolk is round and yellow, so the moon is. Besides there’s also lotus seed paste, red been paste, nuts, ham or many others stuffing in Chinese mooncake.

All the celebrations are for one goal that families could come together just likes the full moon. The moon is round in mid-autumn day, and hope all the people around the country would have family reunion.

Other than eating, children will play lantern tonight. The structure of traditional lantern is very simple, including a paper cover and a candle in the middle. They carry the colorful lanterns here and there; lighten their happy faces and the road of people who are going home. As the science development, traditional candle lantern has changed into electric one and it’s safer. Yet in my heart, the mid-autumn day’s lantern just belongs to the original candle face.

I have many thoughts today, and even haven’t expressed this in Chinese. Maybe we should use another way to feel the great traditional culture around us.

Every Monday morning, I have to get up earlier, and go to school in rush hour. Of course, if I want to get rid of such embarrassing moment, I could return to school at Sunday evening, however, in four Mondays of this semester I preferred the inconvenient way. I really hated squeezing myself into a crowded bus, yet that’s a side of life. It shows a real society, a place with many ordinary people. No matter you are young or old, fat or slim, the people in rush hour would like busy bees, and no one will treat you as a human-being, because there is no space in bus could show your gentleman. The one want to get on a crowded bus will do what’s possible. The only hope is get on a bus, arrive at the place they what to on time.

After many bus-stops I finally had a seat. Watch the buses and cars outside, I though a lot. Every bus can load more than 20 people, yet most of the cars or taxis just have one person or two, but two cars or taxi will take a bus area on roads. Maybe cars make plenty people convenient, however, it also waste of source of road in rush hour at the same time. I really appreciate "no car day" (2007-09-22) in some cities of China.

I’m not a kind-heart man; whenever I see old people on bus I will automatically feel hostility. Why they choose this time to go somewhere which is not necessary at all (It’s not necessary to me, but in their sides, it’s very important.)? They just know make more troubles in messy time. Old people have their ways of life, we young people have to work or study, and they should also have their freedom to enrich their rest of life. I admit that I was wrong.

Sometimes I would ask myself what’s the difference between others and me. Now, I think I have gotten a temporary final answer – perseverance, which combine with courage would lead to success. Yet in many situations, I just obtain the right hand (persistence), but lose the other (confidence). That’s OK, because I’m an ordinary people, the one with many kinds of shorts.

A quarter to an hour ago, I saw a program about intelligence children. The IQ of them are more than 130, so they should be out of others in theory, however, the roads of them are so different too. In fact, some of them have done a great job, yet another just return to an everyman. Someone will say the genius’ killer is the out of date policy, but I don’t think so. The reason that stars fall from the sky is they commite suicide. None could help the one without ambitious to become difference, so if a genius failed, hadn’t they have some struggle before? I’m not a genius from head to toe, for this I never expect to win without hard working.

Just like everybody else, I’m the unique one. One ovum and one sperm met by chance, and combined together, after developed, that cell formed me. Birthed in 1985, and cultivated in my family and schools. Till now, no one could redial the time; consequently even the God couldn’t copy another me.

Unique me have my own strongpoint, needn’t envy others, let your arm to fire the best, you already triumph.