我的天

How big the wind now! And what a high temperature this afternoon! I want to do nothing, I don’t know how to write and what can I speak out. There’s nothing in my head. I know this month I have plenty of projects to finish, while now, what should I do?

I should listen to more and more English, and do a large number of reading comprehensions, of course you can’t leave the endless words which are in the CET-4 order we should know, yet what about my Food Chemistry paper, and the experiment reports? After NCRE, I have much more problems to solve one by one. The training class of ISO9001& HACCP and the English competition are coming. Am I really a person after all. Is this the meaningful life of a sophomore? I don’t think so. What about my own time? I’m not a free person, but a robot, instead. Why I should work hard then get one after another certificate? As everybody known, the purpose we get certificate just similar to the reason that we work for money. A dream of better life, and a more comfortable days in future make me be in trouble hence we did so much painful thing now. You don’t know why you sit here in the dorm to write down so much, however, beyond this, what you could do?

Blow me away please. Please clean my head and rebuild my mind, Mother Nature. We should have our own goal and work for it, nevertheless, now I have just lost my compass to continue my navigation. Blow me away, from the trouble to the peaceful place. I don’t care how hard the life will be, yet please give me the reason that why I was in such situation.

Writing meaningless essay was not my own style, yet please forgive me, I don’t know what to say just now really. Blow away, please blows away my grey mind.

This week I should continue my essay in English again. Today the electricity of here was cut from 8:30 AM to 18:30 PM, maybe that’s because of the wires should be checked from now and then, hence we should be in another situation — without electricity.

In the dormitory, we had no electricity and tap water, because without electricity, the water couldn’t be pump from the low place to the fifth floor. The canteen was in trouble, too! Thought they could use machine to generate electricity to keep the necessary activity, yet as you know, they wouldn’t lose their money to give you lighter. So the canteen was in dark, you couldn’t see very clear want food you could choose, and even though sat down to have your meal, in fact, what you were eating you still not so sure. Just put it into your mouth chewed it and swallowed into your stomach and that’s all. The Food Chemistry Experiment class was affected as well. Without computer and projection, our teacher seemed have no idea, and even though wanted to cancel the classes and selected another time to continue, of course, such kinds of suggestion was been rejected. The most important thing was that there’s another teacher in our classroom that was planned to evaluate his class, consequently he had to do a good job, no matter what happened! In my opinion, he was good today, at least better than usual when he could use computer. I personally think that a teacher should know how to teach even though in bad situation, they’re not the robot of computer! With chalk in hand, they should play a good show on the platform.

After supper in about 4:30 PM, we were on the way to dormitory, and found most of our female classmates were playing different P.E. in the ground. Some of them were playing tennis, and some were playing badmintons, some were play volleyball and the others were playing shuttlecock. We joined them at once. At first, I played tennis, what a long time I had put down the bat! And then I played badminton, I’m sure that I’m still a greener at this domain, however, I had to be a teacher, because someone were more green than me. At last I turned to play shuttlecock. That’s a game could join a lot of people…

With electricity, we would go back to our room and turn on the computer as quickly as we can. We really lose a lot of time in them. We really miss a lot of chances to sweat from head to toe. What life will be without sports! Another sky is open to us all the time; nevertheless we miss it again and again.

Now, I realize another theory, without electricity, without computer, we still have another sky!!!

不知道为什么4月1日叫做“愚人节”（这里有由来：http://www.fjii.com/board/holiday/4.1/fool.htm），我个人觉得原来“愚人”的日子才刚刚开始，愚人的事情还陆续有来。整个四月都是充满了愚人的气氛，想过个平淡的日子都不行。为什么，为什么一定要那么烦恼的事情一起来，讨厌到了极点，我只想做做自己喜欢做的事，去见见周公而已。为什么接下来的周末周日都如此的烦人！

首先是家庭的清明扫墓。定在4月8、9日，就是这个星期六和下个星期天。这个我是挺愿意的。毕竟一年才去那么一次，一年才去见一次已经去世的老一辈。不喜欢给自己找什么不能去的借口。这个传统我会一直保留下去的。只有高考那一年没有去，我不想今年又搞什么特殊化，因为特殊化一开始就很难改回来的。

接着是看到学校的活动通知：广东省大学生徒步越野寻标邀请赛，这个东西去年我就已经有点兴趣，很想玩玩到底是个什么东西。但它的初赛是在4月15日，就是下个星期六，如果我真的那么荣幸进入了决赛，那么决赛的时间就在4月最后一个星期六。到此为止这还是两件可以兼备的事情，但接下来所听到的就让我十分头大了。

级会通知4月8日早上9：30在教四109有个关于四级考试的讲座，说是什么请了印象英语的老师来讲，最讨厌的那一条是不准缺席。你这不是难为我吗？从来就不信什么英语讲座，讲那么2个小时我能有什么质的飞跃，还不是老模样？！还记得初中升高中的时候来了2个小时（40元/小时）的所谓“高级资深老师”的补习，结果还不一样。所以讨厌这种十分形式化的东西。大概“唐老鸭”说不准缺席是因为怕我们都不去，结果那个能坐500多人的教室空空的不好看，也觉得浪费学校的钱吧，但去那里我只觉得是浪费金钱！虽然知道这个东西是不准缺席，但我是100%要请假。这个消息并没有让我为难，而是让我感到很生气！

但接下来看到的消息就真的让我感到有点不知所措了。4月8、9、15、16日在院楼316会有个ISO9001和HACCP的培训班，通过考试就能得到相关的审核员合格证。作为一个食品专业的学生，我觉得我应该去。而且在学校的培训费用比在外面的要便宜很多，单一个ISO9001的培训费用只要290元，而ISO9001和HACCP双证则只需420元，远比外面的单证也要4位数的培训费要便宜。而来授课的单位是中鉴认证（简介：http://www.gzcc.org.cn/introduction/index.asp），应该是十分可靠的，要不我们学院也不会让它来，让个不三不四的没有信用的企业在院楼316开课，这是绝对不可能的。它有自己的网站http://www.gzcc.org.cn/index/index.asp。这个消息真的让我很为难。我就只有2次机会了，要不就今年这个月，要不就要等明年这个时候了。因为大四的时候就肯定没有这样的机会了，而大三的时候现在有空没有也很难说，因为说不定要到什么地方实习去了。这个东西一冲就冲掉了我2个周末，还有那些复习四级英语的时间。而之前的所有计划都要被它覆盖掉。好痛苦的决定啊！！！

烦人，超级烦人！！！有人告诉我该怎么抉择吗？！！！

2006-04-01，April Fool’s Day的全国计算机二级考试，这算不算是我这辈子过得最“愚”的一个愚人节呢。虽然说不上这辈子，但起码就我的经历的来说，这算是最愚的。很多人现在很轻松高兴，但我身边更多更多的人有的只是痛苦。不想在别人痛苦的时候说些快乐的经历，别人都不高兴自己也高兴不起来。

今天花掉了一天的时间在正校。首先是早上9：00 – 11：00的笔试。在那2个小时里我经历了好多大起大落，铅笔借给别人了，连黑色的水笔也借给别人了，一个是我左边的男生，一个是我右边的男生。这个考试对我来说很重要，起码我花费了超过1个月的时间去准备，比期末考C语言准备长多了，现在的xrspook也比当年强了，效率提高了，但每天就是在那些东西中转来转去，每个晚上都是如此。放下了英语，放下了论文，就管这么一个C语言。不可思议地把一本高等教育出版社出版的C语言教程完完全全地搞定了。就是一本草稿本，在题目旁边乱写乱画。只要哪个课觉得困了，不想听了，就拿出来“充电”，但这种事情通常只会发生在食品化学综合实验理论课老师在说食品化学已经说过的理论的时候。当别人在QQ的时候，当别人在看电视的时候，当别人在讲电话的时候……我知道自己该干什么。为奋斗的人是自己！！

我不是个懂投机取巧的人，我的一时懒惰都通常会变成恐怖的结局，因为我的运气臭死了。所以，唯一可以相信的人是自己，自己把东西都记入脑袋就什么也不怕。很早以前我就曾经说过如果我是个圣斗士的话我依靠的不是圣衣的保护，我选择的是像紫龙一样脱掉圣衣，靠自己的力量去拼搏。 只有脱掉圣衣我的小宇宙才能发挥到最大极限。

很感动，今天没有下雨，反而出现了太阳。

我没有愚弄自己，相信别人也不可能把我愚弄！

又开始下雨了，明天就是大名鼎鼎的愚人节，我也该解脱了，今天就是黎明前的黑暗。但无论怎么算也没有昨天晚上倒霉。

首先是在上完“广告学原理”之后在那个可是自习，但不知哪里的同学那么热心，还在高歌，有男有女，先是来几个音阶联系，接着就来了，本来在教师自习就是图个安静，结果就一直有“鬼夜哭”，实在太恐怖了。特别是男的唱的时候，为什么要搞个九点多，快十点的时候来练习如此的东西，要人吓破胆吗？有本事午夜十二点才唱，那才叫绝！！！ 于是在整个看书的过程中就伴随着那些令人毛骨悚然的歌声，简直叫人不要活了。

回到宿舍，惊魂的事情原来陆续有来。学院规定，每天晚上11：00就要各班班委去清点负责的宿舍的人数，如果发现有哪个同学不在就必须报告。但就在11：30PM的时候，有人来敲门了，开始以为是纪检电脑，但却惊慌地进来一个同班同学，说她的一个室友还没有回来，而她的那个宿舍正是我所管的。该死！那个同学在上几个学期曾经是我们班的一个十分特别的人，特殊得不得了，曾经害怕她去做傻事，现在居然来个失踪。我发毛。唯一可以做的就是尽快去那个纪检人员那里报告。事件推得越晚解决，问题就越大。但当我们找到纪检人员的时候，同学告诉我，她回来了！吓到半死的我们总算舒了一口气。因为上一个星期我班就曾经有个女生搞失踪，已经似乎闹得很大的样子，如果这次再来一个，我们班就一定出名了。

我必须要了解情况。当失踪回来的那人正在打电话给她妈，语气极端的差，原因我就在门口听了个100%，因为她去了网吧写论文，写了好久都没有搞定。她的室友已经向她打了9个电话，最后无可奈何打去了她家，于是不久她就回来了。她这样的行为真的很不负责任，如果你要晚回来起码要向室友发个短信。让大家都可以放心。这次以后我学乖了，以后真的要去点点人数，而她宿舍的大概也学乖了，不见了那个同学应该尽快和她的家联系。

最后什么大事都没有发生，但却吓个半死。到底是不是要人得心脏病啊！一些不管别人的感受在“高歌”，一个理会他人担心我行我素。乱七八糟，一切都乱七八糟……