我的天

The university sports meeting eventually held today. I didn’t hold and hope or confidence long before. I won’t be the superstar; the only request is I wouldn’t be the ugly one. Actually, my terrible dream came true.

Arrived at the Huashang playground, and I had to find one to hold my tennis pat, there were only two people I know, I had no choice but one. Wait a while, and I had to go to check in. They asked me to go there before my item started, so I did it. As the tradition of SCAU, they wouldn’t start their work on time. SCAU has a very strange tradition; the entire athletes have their own amahs. The amahs help athletes do some things and let them to do better. My amah is a female, and just like a SBB. I didn’t know how to say my demand and he didn’t know how to do something to make me better either.

I saw a girl in my Food College dressed in all red, the red vest and the red shorts; all the dresses just liked the professor athletes. In the college select compete; I had experience her “professor”(just look like) preparative exercise. And this time, her dress showed her must be the superstar, but I wonder, could she do that. Because even in the college select compete, she just got the second prize (and I was the third), did she hold her strength, I didn’t know, and none of my business. Her amahs also use something to gather up, to let her muscles to in the fittest state, I also wonder whether it was useful, even so, I wouldn’t let it happen on me. The reason was her amah is a girl and mine is a boy. My SBB amah was still SBB. He knew nothing at all. I had to do my preparation and he stands far away, and just nursing my bag and shoes. The “professor” girl started her “professor” preparation still. The female 100-metre race was about to start. I was in the first group, and without a real amah, I had to find someone to affirm. So I asked the “professor” girl in my group, and her answer (in a cold voice) was “Of count! Are you sleeping?” At that time, I really wanted to give her a heavy punch, and let her collapse before the completion. But I controlled myself and replied a “thank you” as a manner. In fact, the raging fire was burning inside, if I did a good job, I would “give you some cooler to see see”. But this thought disappear rapidly, the fact let it die. When I still drive my run up machine, the judge shout “ready”, I had to squatted in a very uncomfortable way, and when begin, my heart was still in its proper place. When I started my running, I had 5 meters behind other. And I was also not a superman; I couldn’t let the miracle to happen. I lose in a very ugly way. And the “professor ” girl got the first prize of this group. But after a while, I heard she still couldn’t attend the final, though she and me were in the same college, in a short time, I really felt a little happy. Was I a “bad heart” one?

It seemed I could go home. I went to get back my tennis pat, and could leave the sad place. But another accident that shows my ugly happened.

My classmate who kept my tennis pat was not there. And I asked anybody I knew, but still could not find her, so it meant I couldn’t leave. I didn’t afraid. I found anywhere of the playground, asked anybody just liked a mad person, but the result was still zero. After two hour, I still couldn’t fine her. After the completion, I didn’t why my knee was bleeding, my amah asked me at that time, I just say nothing serious, and after two hours I still had no pain, the wound looked a little terrible, but actually or by heart, I really felt nothing. Even though I forgot I have hurt. The biggest problem was I must find out my tennis pat classmate. She didn’t have mobile phone and nobody knew where she was. After two hours searching, I didn’t have any endurance anymore. When I saw my other classmates, I would immediately yell at them. I didn’t how horrible I was, but I must be a crazy man. Yelling at anybody, and the action just liked I killed the people who disappeared with my tennis pat. I couldn’t control myself, I just knew to show my feeling at that way, but in fact, I was just impatient and had no complaint to that classmate at all. In others’ eyes, my visualize must be completely collapse. That’s my emotion weak point. I had no different between Antonio (La Coteña y El Cachao) always complains, and Armando at the very beginning always yell at others. I didn’t know whether others would remember this thing forever, if it did, I had no choice.

xrspook, the ugly one, is the last time to be the ugly. 

Because of tomorrow sports meeting, I couldn’t go home today. It’s really an extremely good chance. Because of 0.5point, I miss a golden chance. After three weeks we will have tennis test, but now I couldn’t control my ball, as I liked. And the most terrible thing was I had to have 800-metre race test next week or the week after the next week. 800-metre is my biggest knot. Every time I afraid of it very much. Maybe for it’s terrible process, it just continual a few minutes, but during this time I will just like going to the hell and then coming back, the bad feeling can’t describe by words. All the muscles of your body are very tired, and your breath heavily, each breath you can feel the pain from your nose, you mouse, your trachea and your lung. Your body no matter inside or outside is in a more unconformable state. And then after the nonhuman 4 minutes, I will like catch a terrible cold for a week. So I like all the sport except 800-metre race, I can’t stand that horrible feeling. So now, I began to be afraid that test, though I know I must past or get a full mark, I really hate that test.

心结还有中午送来的摄影协会的开会通知，可恶到了极点！今天要开会，明晚也要开会，把我一切的计划都破坏到体无完肤。已经没有人理会它了，为什么它还是给我们来通知。最惨的是我们的学术活动手册都扣留在它那里，无论如何今天晚上也要去，谁叫我们星期一做了不好的XX勾当。

可恶可恶，今天晚上听的又是那个党委的“梁主任”。军训期间已见识过他说话的厉害，普通话极端不准，说话长气得无法形容，今天又是他经典的“今天我们的话题就从这里开始”，此时，全场04大一新生都发出了起哄，回想一个月前军训期间在开大会的时候，以为他要说完，谁知说了这句话，使我们掉进了深渊……虽然环境不同，但我们还心有余悸，惊弓之鸟嘛，心有感触。这个讲座本来是有0.2分，但我们的学术手册还没到，以为可以来拿，谁知其他人都有，今天又要上交才有0.2分，这不是耍我们吗？扣留了我们的手册，又搞到我们白坐2个半小时，很讨厌，决定明晚一定不去开它的会员大会，哼，give you some colour to see see（胡说）。

How can I solve my knot?

There is two days to our school meeting. This morning I saw my name on the athletes’ list of our college in the end. To my surprise, I would attend in 100-metre race instead of shot, which was my class item, I loss in that my proudest item, but won in the first attempt item. What a great surprise! Though I thought my running was not to bad. You can see, just finished running and start throwing at once, how could I get a good mark! Or how could I show my normal level.

机械制图，又是昏昏欲睡，不是老师太沉闷，也不是我不用心，而是……昨天晚上的“被窝作业”真痛苦，连做作业也要偷偷摸摸（因为晚上11：30就要关灯，但作业还没做好）。从昨天开始，blog的“烂日记”开始一半英文一半中文，虽然洋不洋鬼不鬼的，但用全英语表达日常生活真的很好玩，就如开始用中文写blog那样， 心里想写与实际写的不一样，要不就写不出，要不就词不达意，好好笑。

There is so “funny” that Maoism lessons and the Food & Science summary lessons both said a famous sentence that made by Chairman Mao “The political power are made from the gun.” The politics lessons told about this thing were not so strange, but the food specialty lessons also told about it was so funny.

Tonight I had to go to college building to have my sports games mobilize meeting. It’s so boring, just said the same thing. I couldn’t believe that they said the sports meeting would be very large and professional, but it even wouldn’t have running up machines, and asked the athletes who would run under 400-metre must squat when starting. How can they do that? What’s professional!!! Just a normal P.E. test, just a small middle school or in a very bad primary schools, they would have such simple machines. What’s my university? South China Agriculture University is really Outdate stuff. Before the meeting, they also gave me my invitation, just like it’s a very important things and it’s very proud thing.

我不期望我在100米会有什么骄人的成绩，因为从没练过，他们也没给我练的时间，顺应天命，我唯一的选择。只有安慰自己，进入已经是一种好运，一种幸福，应该满足。

Terrible me! Today I arrived at the classroom at 7:00 AM, at that time just two people there. There’s something wrong with me. Just like yesterday, I did some English exercises and then read “Español Moderno” read English and Español really made me very spiral during the two chemical classes. At the break of the classes I read Español, it’s really very efficient to me, so that I could put all my heart in listening to teacher.

Then I went to practice tennis. Just to find a place, it cost a lot of time. The boys who played terrible football, if I still went there had taken the best place; I just wanted to kill myself. To find a place, we attempted for several places, at last I practiced in the road of A3 and A4. Pat the ball against the wall, I had to pick and pat, just repeated the same movement. But it was still not good enough; it’s always higher or lower, the right ball just appeared 10%. But I must practiced, I didn’t want to be shouted by the tennis teacher for “You haven’t take back your tennis pat, you haven’t finish the action” or “Don’t play too energetically!” (Because it’s really dangerous, will intimidate him or others safe, all of this I have said in my earlier daily.) I must let him and others see my real power, I must give them a great show, let them jealous me! Ha! ha!

今天决定用英汉同时写blog，因为没有太多的时间说英语，只有这样。至于语法错误什么的我就不管了，管TM的。 也去了“百佳”，百佳里没花钱，出了百佳到M（Mcdonald）就花掉了17.5，吃麦辣鸡腿汉堡超级套餐，好久没吃了，一年都没吃了，可能因为华农的湘川菜的锻炼，我再也不觉得那以前劲辣的包辣了。

It’s just a start. What will happen if I write all the dailies in English?

机械制图原来感觉比画画发几何感觉好多了。画法几何就给一个图，然后上面有点，要你在另外的三视图画出，既无聊又困难，有时呆坐半小时也没有半点头绪，不会做的，你抄也不会做。

今天开始说的原来才是机械制图，以前一直在学画法几何，感觉好多了。虽然也免不了恐怖的取点，但总比对着一个圆锥、圆球、圆柱混合体来画什么相贯线好。图是复杂了，但我觉得更好玩。看到一个貌似组合体，由多个部件构成的立体图画三视图真的很好玩，很有挑战性。我知道这不是什么闹着玩的东西，但真的新鲜有趣。

但别看就几个简单的几何图形构成，画了2个作业的臭东西也画了我2个多小时。首先研究数据，然后取位，之后画底稿，老师就说一个部分一个部分来画，三个视图要同时完成一个部件，我就想怎么画就怎么画，画得顺心，不会漏就好了。检查过没有错后再用2B加深。工序就几步，但也画死人。但并不太痛苦，我反而很享受其中的乐趣，画的时候有种“专业”的感觉，自己就是专业设计师或工程师。（哈，我又发疯了：）

晚上打算去听摄影协会的讲座，晚上7：00到（讲座7：30开始），但已没有位置，无奈之下放下那个学术盖章的东西就走了。（这样做是不是很不好？没办法，形势所逼嘛！）然后直到10：15才把图画完。（回来洗澡后已经9：00）中午的高数做的什么“高阶导数”、“隐函数”导得我晕头转向，18道题做了2个多小时，我真的……

终于做完了一天的作业。祝自己“万圣节快乐”。不过没人扮鬼吓我，哎！