我的天

要改造这里可真不容易啊！！！我真的耗尽脑汁，常常在数学课上分神，在建筑美学与欣赏课上就更不用说了，为的就是改造这里，打造我xrspook个性化的blog，除了内容，我还要特殊的界面，但其实这样做真的很难很难。

已经搞了几乎4个小时，还没有完工，实际上现在已经是4月30日的凌晨2：17，只好现在才写昨天的日记，不是我忘了，而是忙得我都不知道怎么说了。

我有我自己专用的测试网页来做调试，是专门多申请的一个blog: http://regalo.blogbus.com，由于这里实在太大了，稍有闪失都会令我痛心欲绝所以就不得不牺牲一个blog来做试验了。

好痛苦啊！！！

里面的东西几乎全部都要细细看然后再做修改，只是搞那个可恶的主页图片就搞得我头晕。先是用Photoshop搞出个图片，然后就打算直接放在主页头加连接做成，但谁知道这样子图片就会有个难看的连接边框。走投无路的时候发现了原来Frontpage也有热区域功能，于是试了一下，还不错，甚至比专业得多的Dreamweaver还要简单有用。这算不算杀鸡焉用牛刀呢？不过真的，用Dreamweaver做的热区还不如用Frontpage做的简单方便。马上就搞定棘手的难看连接问题。

但原来现在真正的问题才刚来，最大的问题仍然是CSS那个东西。怎么改怎么不顺心，怎么不妥。都不知道是我的问题还是主机服务器因为被我不断重建发布而搞坏了，反正现在即使我改了，无论怎么刷新和重发布都看不到效果，我的天！你叫我这个小白怎么做人？所以，现在只好放弃然后开始写日记。

看来要今天完成“我的天”换面工程，今晚是做不了的了，睡一觉明天继续奋战吧。其实大部分已经完工了，如果有兴趣可去http://regalo.blogbus.com看看。

Sometimes, you will think, the fate very adjust to you, but maybe it will be opposite as you wish at once. It’s just like kidding you as its wish, nobody knows what will be.

Fate of me is ups and downs, I believe with stable faith, I can stand!

For a long tiem, I’m just an audience. I’m a listener in a speech. And one day, when I hadn’t prepardd anything, the God pulled me to a platform. So terrible, do you understand my feeling at that time? I wanted to escape, however, it’s a shame to me at last.

And the second chance came to me without any anticipate, so I felt nerous again. Fortunately, after athe completely fail one, I gained a litte experience. I could say what I had thought or I could say something that I hadn’t thought about. Just say a lot of thing to by time, and waited for teacher to stop me. Maybe, if I stood there said nothing, just a scold  would come to me, I wouldn’t lose my face, however, I always chose the face losing one.

In a word, the speech in high school were all terrible to me. When I stood before so many people on the platform, I lost my self, I saw nothing except felt my heart juup faster and faster.

And the email and MSN talking with foreigner helped me to find some ways, as well as wateched the interview of JEA again and again gave me some ideasl. After so much, I’m even proud of giving a speech and can enjoy the process of it. Sometimes, I really earger to have one. I found the feeling on the platform was not bad, I got some confident before I went to high school. Nothing to be worry about is a faith to me when I was young.

In my opinion, the most important thing when having speech is how to express all your feeling by heart. You are having a talk show there, with all your body, including your eyes, your gesture, and of course, your voice and tone. You’re talking instead playing a drama, so the tone si the most important thing, and others are just acquistition. You must let your tone ups and downs as your content. I personally think, that’s emotion element, you must sue that must be included. If you even can’t understand what you want to say, how you can hope others will? So the essay of speech must be able to touch you or you have a great emotion to it. At the same time, you must pay attention to the level of your listener, consequently, it’s impossible to give a university speech to children in primary shcool, they couldn’t get anything.

Care about yourself and others, and your speech will be full of emotion.

For half a term. I have to learned for about 2 months, the analytical chemical experiment has come to me for such a long time.

REcall the situation at the very beginning, I hated it very much , because I always did some stupid thing at them. I found I was careless and all the job just like a evil, they wanted to bring me too hell. With such ugly feeling, I still have to still on it. I was spending the hard time instead enjoying myself. THat’s my necessary cousre, I have to pass it, because I’m a good food science engineering student.

However, as time goes by, I feel better now. It proved a principle that time could heal anything. I am even familiar with it, and it also becomes a normal thing, a part fo my life. Just do it, and just use your heart at it, and at last, you will get something. The chemical analytical experiment is going. Now it has left me, the last classes of it has passed. We maybe apart forever. At the way of out walk ay seem not so tough as I miagine. After taste it, a good echo comes out. The way is hard, but I need it, for all my life. What a good memery! I will be pround to tell others that I have had such experience from my basic chemical analytical experiment.

And the other thing that I didn’t want to face was my result of the English mid examination. This class, my teacher just handed out the question sheet, she kept the mark’s secrect and told us to find the answer by ourselves, an then communicated it at the next class. What an evil thing! She asked us to bring ourselves to grave by our own hands! It’s  killing me! I rally want to die to do that.

So the English classes we just practised listening. The comprehensions of our test pater and our textbook. At a part, she asked students to read an essay after listening to the litning matieral. And, I was the last one who asked ot read I was good at imitating, and I knew the differences between the voice of Chinese and foreigner, so I really did my best to copy them. And then, got a price. Maybe my pronuncistion is not so good as soemone, however, I have inmitated by heart.

I do it, so I get it.

I hate raining day, every where are wet, and the rain bring the wind, the wind and the rain make me feel a little cold, at this situation, the people will get sick very easily. It makes every things dripping wet, as well as my shoes are another victim, of course, it also make in water from haead to toe, the feeling in that time is horrible.

I don’t like compel to be wet in raining day, instead, I prefer sunshine, though in harmful sun I also will be wet every parts of my body, yet I still like the way wet from inside. There’s no problem that I make myself wet, but it’s a great trouble that make wet by other things or person.

Just this morning, when I let home, I found I couildn’t find out my sandals everywhere. I had searched very carefully, however, the time was limited, I had to go, fortunately, the drain stopped. So I wore my shoes and left at once. At that time, I rally felt lucky.

However, the real situation is far from that. At noon, the rain started again, and even larger than the morning one. I had to go to have my classes! With what I could go there??? With no choice, I prefered slippers. We can’t to to classroom wiht slippers, I know, but if I wear a pair of sport shoes, it must be wet no matter outside or inside. It’s the first time, I broke the laws. Having learnt it for such a long time, however, in this situation, I ate my words. I didn’t really mean to, but is anyone able to tell me the solution way?

As the rain is going outside, another rain is also conituning in my heart. I found I was the alone one in my room. Because of my isolate action? Because I always come back herer at weekend? Because I pay too less attention to them but just my own thing? Because I don’t care their feeling? Because I am a hero on my blog but a defeated on in real life, especially carry out the relationship?…… There’s no because any more. All the because are half right and the other wrong.

I don’t know what happen, but it’s really raining, I hate it!