我的天

I don’t know when the end is. This morning, another female postgraduate left our world. I can see, that must be a dark, cold silence morn, however, after that everyone in my school can’t be quintet again. She was the fourth of this semester. Why the evil came and never planned to leave? The professors, the associates and all the tutors here can’t keep calm anymore. University is a place where can educate a man not a place that is suitable to end one’s life! Let’s be moment silence. I’m not a bad heart people, I hope that kinds of thing won’t befell on as again, however, as everybody known that she was the first and was not the last as well. The suggestion of the death is so clear, even though a fool can smell it. Once we didn’t light a fire to get away the dark that has been discovering, there must be devil’s mystery hidden in it. I think just the scientific light can solve that problem; during this time we should have more courage to envisage reality. For a long time, we exert ourselves to flee from it, however, after so much, can we flee still? We can’t flow, we can’t flee, and we have to know how to face.

Depression is a great reason of death. This afternoon, my food microbiology teacher used about 25 minutes talking about the death, and its brother depression. He told us a story that when a person couldn’t walk out of the place where his/her was very familiar in evening, and he/she just could walk a round at that place. That means he/she must have some problems in his/her heart. In fact, the real barrier is not in the dark and can’t be the dark of night, but he/her loses the compass of his/her heart. In short, he/her couldn’t walk out the round in his/her heart. (Let’s talk about mind and heart. Heart emphasizes the emotion; on the other hand mind is most used to describe the logic thought.) His/Her maybe depress, so it’s time to do something.

We are not the God; we don’t have any capability to rob the people from the Death. We are green hands in front of HIV; we are also the green hand in front of suicide. The best way to stop it is to prevent any those thought grow in our mind. Prevention is better than cure, that’s because most of times we just can treat instead of cure, we can’t have confidence that we are surely overcome the enemy of any kind. As a human being, the entire thing we can do is do our utmost to treat it, not cure it.

Jump, jump, jump, hey! Our school is not for jumping from the top of any building. It’s a place which educates people instead of ending one’s life. Dead, Dead, Dead, dad, could you tell me that’s the end?

We had done a great job! We are the winner of the tug of war between 2005 Food 4 and ours (2004 Food 3). We are elder than them, we should win, and from the shape and size of us, we would win. In my opinion, we had no reason that we would fail in this war! At last, as a think, the Goddess of victory came to our side, however, which beyond my thought was that the real victory was more hardly than ideal.

Before the tug of war, I thought we would be sure win, yet it’s far from so easy. Maybe, no only me but some of my classmates thought the opponent was small potato that we could win without any hard working, so we didn’t pay all our attention at the first round. The first round beyond my thought, we had a standoff with our opponent. We would have three rounds match, which team wins two of them and that’s the winner. If two team didn’t have win or fail in 30 seconds, that means deadlock. A standoff will be judged.

We had better players, we should have more confident, why we would miss the first round, the Goddess came and went, and in some time, she even wanted to help our opponent, however, we reseized the initiative, and won at the second and the third rounds. We now had promoted in the next round, the opponent in future must be stronger. Hope we can be strong when we meet the stronger opponent, and win the champion at last :) Could you imagine when we win after two rounds how happy we were? We all handed up, shouting and cheering, just like the champion crown had on our head. That’s the power of us, the power of our comity. We had done a great job! Who had helping us? No one except ourselves! I can feel the glory that I am part of this collective. They can cheer me up, when you are down; they can share my happiness because I am one of them. Thank you very much; you give me strong hug in such damp cold raining day. With you, we all can confront any difficulty. Thank you a million!

And today 02-28 also a special day in my calendar — the birthday of JEA (exactly, 02-28 is not his birthday, he was born on 1968-02-29. It’s a leap year, and he was born on the leap day. So when he was born, all the people had to celebrate his birthday on 02-28, except the leap year I think. What a poor guy! How could he born on 02-29! What a lucky guy! Many fans including me celebrate such important day for him every year. ) And this is the forum of his birthday: FELIZ CUMPLEAÑOS JORGE ENRIQUE, as part of fans, how can I did nothing, so I had participated, if you are his fans too, you should also show something now, vamos!

So today really a very special day! We won the tug of war, and JEA won the heart of his fans :))))

It drizzled off and on all day. Before now, I don’t know there is such a word to describe a fine, gentle, misty rain. It seems never any in a short time. Though I don’t think it’s good for me, yet I have to face the reality that spring has come, and the good friend of her rain also has come together. Raining, raining, raining, whenever looking the sky, it’s raining, like the fog; you miss the blue sky and the warming shining. Moisture is just around you; even embrace you firmly, no matter you like or not. I hate such weather, however, the life tells me, its part of them, without hatred, the true love won’t come out, and the happiness won’t be deep and memorable.

Today, a bad news came with the misty rain. Another young lady left the spring of 2006 and preferred to go to the dark cold hell alone. She is a postgraduate, not everyone can be postgraduate. In my opinion, she is very bright and lucky. Just like the la niña (el niño: it’s Spanish means the son of the God, in Chinese it means 厄尔尼诺. I changed it a little I think the meaning of  la niña should be the daughter of the God). A bad example，to us and for our school. Are the students of SCAU fragile and so easy to collapse? What did the deaths want to prove? You are not the glass, and even though you are the glass you must be the toughened glass! Just because did get a good mark at the Official Entrance Examination, you selected such road that couldn’t come back again. Who you were! What did you want! You know there won’t be plane road all the life, why not went to die when you know you couldn’t went to Tsinghua University but SCAU. Became a part of official was your dream? That was the only thing you wanted to do in this world? How silly you were! The poor work hard everyday to keep alive, even though they would pay out their labor force to live in this world. You were also the human beings why you waste your life. In short, I think they all didn’t have a right philosophy, they have lots of knowledge more than the beggar, why they should opt a way that even though a fool won’t choose? What made them so silly?

They came and went, disappeared in the misty rain. Should we forget such person? Why they would do so?

2005-10-14, I translated a much exited essay – Un Hamlet lleno de estrellas . It said that JEA would take part in Hamlet，could you believe how happy I was? From that time, I told myself I must read Hamlet out and out, I must understand all the roles in that book, so in many ways, I did my best to reach my dream. I downloaded the MP3 from BBC, and also the cartoons about Hamlet. I think, I was ready now, though not so enough. The play will on show in March this year.

Just a few days ago, I wrote a new log – 哈姆雷特的新悬念–2006-02-17 here . At that time I still didn’t know the bad news, though it seemed a little abnormality. And today, I saw a almost 100% bad news from Martha (JORGE ENRIQUE ABELLO – FORO- :: View topic – HAMLET COLOMBIA)

It means: The photo of 哈姆雷特的新悬念–2006-02-17 is old, and now JEA is recording the TV Merlina Mujer Divina, so the schedule of him is crossing, and she thought whether JEA would in the theater to play Hamlet that was rather impossible. Oh, that’s a super bad news to me. Why such things happen??? I’m standing by now, and the bad news came! Input "Jorge Enrique Abello Hamlet" in Google, you can find Historia del festival iberoamericanos, that’s the news which is in English talks about the  Theater Festival of Colombia, and you can see the big show Hamlet. The cast of Colombia and the director of Mexico that means it must be a play contain a great deal of Latin style. The player will say Spanish, and the scenario has carefully rewritten in Colombia Spanish. That must be a excellent job. So no matter JEA will take part in or not, if I can, I will download and watch.

The good news is I spend a lot of time in Hamlet, and reaped a lot that I didn’t know before. Having the courage to read the book of Shakespeare is very good enough. Though most of its words I don’t know at all, and now I still can’t be accomplished in this play, I have satisfied. Because I have exerted myself in doing such a thing.

And today also the first time of my badminton classes. I was playing with my partner, and then my teacher threw a ball to me, and asked me to test it. I didn’t know what happened at all, and just did it. And then, after a test, she asked me what I thought about that ball. I had no idea at all, instead she said that seemed the same as the old one, and then left away. Till now, I haven’t known what happen?! Why she chose my partner and me to test the new badminton. How can I classify this thing?

Bad news or good news, that’s the question, and both of them can change unconsciously, it’s the art of our life.

Azrael just like stay here and never want to leave any more. Today, another life went away in SCAU. Today is just the third day of semester, even though the beginnings have so many unpleasant things what about future. It’s a bad news to all the staff and students here. The star of train trace was a woman, someone said she had no relationship with SCAU, however, why she selected our school to end her life. Did she think that’s a little tough to us? If everyone who want to die will come to SCAU, what our school will be? It couldn’t be a funeral home! It’s just the new start of this year, why they select the way of leaving away?!

The atmosphere is depressed. A ground people came together and began the topic of the death. It’s not the end of the world, why not talking about others?! If you are one of us, could you bring in other topic without the death? Maybe the top of the school didn’t go to pay for the school, or the Bodhisattva went to have holiday and never came back. Of court, this is just for fun; I don’t believe any God or Bodhisattva.

Yesterday, my professional courses began. The first one is called Food Microbiology (《食品微生物学》) and the other is Food Chemistry (《食品化学》）. Both of them are talking about some food theory. I should fully change my thought that a good cook cooks a delicious food just by his/her experience. Believe or not, with more professional knowledge, using scientific method to machining, even a green hand can do a great job. It seems have a great difference to our Chinese culture; because until now our good cook doesn’t need scale go with them. The weight of food always likes a random feeling, we never use exactly number in our book, that’s mystery, and the secrets pass by generation to generation.

The secrets are waiting us to crack.