我的天

This Thursday, our class must hand out a play script for next English classes. In my opinion, it’s great, change to toughen ourselves, however, at their sides, it’sjust a terrible nightmare. Having learning English for such a long time, and our teacher has done so much thing to encourage them to find the fun of English and enjoy it, why can’t they accept such a thought.

Take everything as a target, everygthing will be difficult to us. "To enjoy it is better than to learn it". The interest is the greatest teacher, it can courage us to face all the setbacks. So, I prefer to look everything  as my friends if it’s possible. About English, I have taken it as necessary thing of daily life, I can’t get rid of it, and at the same time, I don’t think it’s just a course of study. I learn it is not just for getting a good mark. My level, my knowledge of it can’t be described by mark.

This time, because of wonder perform of the last debate and my presentation this term, they choose me to write the play scripe again. I can’t be selfdish, I can’t alway show time and don’t give them any chances! They can do it too! But they never pay their hearts at it, even they never think about it all! They just used the excuse of they hadn’t done it before, so they didn’t do it this time. We are not professional scriptwriter, so it’s a brand new thing for everybody, including me!!! I don’t want to hurt them again, I’m not a surper star, I prefer to conceal myself and let other shine.

I won’t write the play script, though I really want to, I eager to do that, yet I can’t deprive their right of writing it freely. Maybe, or of course they will despair this time of my decision. Therefore, I prefer to be a sin, and teach them a lesson. They can lean on me, but I’m not their anchor forever, I must teach them how to stand by themselves, use their own ability to finish some project. They can too!

So even to be a sin, I must stick to my decision, I won’t write the play script, yet I still will do it secretly:)

For a long time, I looked my chemistry teacher Gao as a monster. I felt she always have some speciali opinion on me. When others asked her some questions, she would be kind to answer, with smile however, she just showed the strict face to me. What’s wrong?

Someone told me that she was pregnant, and would be in holiday for a long time, so she didn’t come to our chemical experience this tearm. To my surprise, she came back again. How astonished I was! Is some one tricking me? But from her belly’s size, she really has a baby, and the birth of his/hers will come very soon. Because of the last experiment was too dangerous so she asked another teacher to make the place of her? I just can find this only reason.

Saw her again made me feel a lot. Surprise, happy and disappointed.

Because of the little fault last time, we had a extremely few produst. When we told her the quatity, an astonish face came out. We didn’t know how to continue, all of us knew, after the refined process this time, we will almost have no product. The original quatity was 0.11g, and  what would be the improved one? At this situation, she also encourage us to continue this experiment, and when we went back to start, I saw a smile on her face, and I did it back. We knew we would do a job without a real result, however, with a little courage, we still worked on it.

At last, after the experiment today, our quatity was 0.07g, and it means the redeeming was 2.30%, in fact, the normal redeeming should be 50%. What had we done? Undoubtedly, we damaged the experiment and destroyed ourselves.

I had no idea about the answer of the questions at that experiment. With little courage, I asked her directly. I never hoped I could get something from her, however, the miracle happened again, she really answered some of them. I didn ‘t know to answer sincerely, and she answered it. As a teacher, she should do, but I’m really very surprise she will do it to me.

To her, I changed a little of my judgement.

I just need do one more physical experiment at this term! However, comparing with chemical experiment, the physics are more comfortable, at least, every time, I don’t need to be afraid that I will fail. No matter how terrible it is, it also can’t instead one of the awful one in chemistry.

The mistakes of chemistry can’t be recovered, you’er wrong at this step, the other step can’t be saved from it, all the experiment will be damaged. It’s really terrible. And the most horrible thing is that I always make all kinds of little mistakes in them. Whereas, when I did the physical ones, I made much less problems, or I didn’t make any mistakes among it. Why such strange this happen to me? Why I can put myself at such miracle situation?

The physical experience today is about survey the refaction of prism. You know, in front of that optics machine, I just like a little child, the machine seems always tricking me. Because of its little error, I had to meet a lot of meet a lot of difficulties. Such as when regualted it, I always couldn’t hit the target, the question was not by myself, but the machine. As a result, though I used a lot time, no matter how careful I was, I couldn’t do that right regulation. At last, this mystrery was found, at all the clouds in my heart be blow away at once.

Beside that, I had to put off and put on my glasses many times. When I found the light, I must put off the glasses and watched the telescope very careful, however, after adjusting that, I had to put on my galsses against to read out the result. So after that, I almost felt my eyes were not in my body but left in somewhere. The muscles of the face were also tried.

This physcial experiment was the first one that we must design this by ourselves. Though at the class, the teacher had spoken out the way to do it, yet to me, I really had thought about it by myself before.

I really had put heart in it.

终于今天又再次看了《电脑报2004合订本下册》里面的《自己打造CD机》终于压抑不住，把自己已经老掉牙的第一代电脑分尸了。

“破坏王”一向是我的称号，在试验课就最明显了。我只会拆不会装一向是我的特色。特别在对待机械类的东西方面，要不就拆不了要不就用强行手段分尸。比如说小的时候拆那个玩具小车里面的饿小电线老是搞不定，绝的它非常阻碍，于是就用剪刀“咔嚓”快捷方便，就是造成的结果无可返回。还有的就是对付拧不开的螺丝几乎都是以把它的胶制的脚弄断结束。我不懂用巧力，也从来没有人教育过我应该怎么用巧力，于是对于一切解决不了的问题一律暴力搞定。这就是我为什么是“破坏王”的原因了。

自己的老电脑已经不得不到退役的阶段了。是PentiumⅠ133MHz真够经典的，更加经典的是居然我在拆开的时候居然发现那个CPU已经发霉了！CPU发霉了！我还是第一次看到！还有一个惊讶的发现就是居然那个CPU风扇不是安装在CPU之上，我很肯定我没有去掉上面的一根螺丝，但CPU和它的风扇就分离了！简直令我目瞪口呆！Wo!!!真够cool的！再看看里面密密麻麻的4条8MB的内存一共是32MB，多么经典的数目啊！在看看主板和我现在正在用的一对比，果然很不同。那台机器的主板和CPU是大概1997年的流行东西，到现在也8年了，8年，对于电脑来说不知道翻了多少翻。

我的目标是CD-ROM和电源。通过自己的手工操作发现，如果不拆掉CD-ROM电源是如何也不能拆掉的。CD-ROM上面满是锈，然后经过一番努力把什么显卡、声卡什么数据线电源线全部拔掉，最终把主板从机箱上完全分离开来，最后才发现自己做了一件很笨的事，就是居然没有发现原来不用如此劳师动众来拆那个电源。不过这个电源应该就是所说得AT电源把，因为它有自带的开关，而连接主板的不是一个大的接口而是两个小的6针的，也就是它的开关并不需要ATX电源那样短接PS_ON（Pin14，绿色）和地线（Pin15，黑色）来开关，方便了我这个什么都不懂的小白。之所以对这个黑线和绿线如此记忆犹新，我还是忘不了不久前自己的电源的完蛋事件。拔掉和主板的连接后短接它们就是开动的方法，没有开关，是它的弊端也是它容易安装的优点，因为如果真的要安装AT电源那个开关真的麻烦，如果不完全拆掉根本无法上螺丝。

无论如何经过一番波折终于把梦寐的电源和CD-ROM拆下来了。插上电源，发现CD-ROM自己在怪叫，于是马上发现自己把它倒着放了，我真够马大哈：p 于是按下弹出，老是听到读不见它出来，无聊啊！当机器没有死掉的时候它就老是不肯出来，如今也一样，于是就把针深到了那个手动开启的小洞洞里，然后把一张MP3放进去，灯亮了一阵，然后没有反应。理论上是根本读不到碟的表示，但是我也不完全怪它，因为毕竟好久没有用了，而且那张MP3是没有自动播放的，于是就换了2只CD，结果还是一样没有反应。但我相信应该不是不能读而是无法控制它继续读取就是自动播放。和我现在用的ONDATA 52XP不同，那个CD-ROM也不知道到底是什么牌子，外面的壳是写着SANYO而实际上里面却不知是什么东西的内核，显然是拼凑而成的。而且它只有一个弹出的按钮，没有我现在那个CD-ROM的play的又一个按钮。当然啦，那么久以前的东西怎么可能可以这样。于是根据我的没有道理的联想，大概就是因为这样，它不能自动播放CD，成为我真正的CD机。不过应该还有第二个很有可能的原因，就是它根本就已经坏了，所以……这个也不排除，CPU都可以发霉了，什么不可能发生。

在拆声卡的时候发现它的一个电容（应该是称呼为电容吧）松了，可以摇晃。这也许就是在那个电脑的最后日子里进入不了Windows，老是说声卡驱动有问题的原因吧。不过这都已经成为历史了。

最终，今天的拆是拆成功了，不过变身为CD机的计划还是不能实现。到现在不知道失败的原因，有待发现loading……

以上就是我对付物理硬件的经历了。

 首先要表达一下自己的无奈之情，我的上一年的去山东的日记山东之行——（二）兖州、泰安 :: 我的天突然得到了如此的评论：

对他/她的评论深表无奈。我无话可说，第一次被人骂：（没想到说真话说真感受也会被素未谋面的陌生人XX，原来自己写blog为了不被别人误会，不伤害别人也好痛苦啊！！！

尽管如此，我还是会坚持我一向的风格，继续发牢骚，继续“我天地，我胡来！”看来大家还是没有看懂我的题目“我的天”的意思，更不明白它的解释为什么是“我天地，我胡来！”我就是为了可以自由，可以随心所欲，没有别的。

随便你们说什么，这就是我的风格，不吐不快。我就是无聊，“吹咩”！

当我看到这条评论的时候我的第一个反应是愕然，然后是无奈，第三是想马上把它删掉，甚至有点侮辱的感觉。但随便啦，就让它留着，这就是我的历史，我还要好好保留，然后甚至为它写如此一篇日记。人生就是这样，没有一路顺风的，谁不是磕磕碰碰过来，谁没有这样失落的时刻，我要保留，让它留着，永垂不朽，这就是我经历过的。

无论被骂多少次，我依然会坚持“我天地，我胡来”。