我的天

The last day we must stay here, how I can state my feeling? When the days went on, we hoped they could be faster and faster, but when you know the last day has become, and you hope it cna pass slower. What I have done in such a long time? What I have know? What Iii have done? What I have known?

The greatest thing is my dailies. I stick on them all the term, no matter busy or leisure, happy or upset. I am proud of them.

Thinking about my study, it’s on contrary to my dailies. I learned nothing when in classes, but reaped a lot when I review. In a day or two, I had learned more than I had done for 12 weeks. The campus life is just like a magic tale, without test except the final examination. And the time is always full of activities. Doing a homework cna cost you 6 hours, doing a experiment can let you forget yourself, and the the community activities are just like endless. The Red Cross commmunity let me happy and angry, and the Photograph community, I just attended in one of its activities. All the memebers in my room hated its activities information, but it came to us from time to time. The reason is we have paid 10 yuan to attend this community.

The experience of going to online bar and tenis classes are also unforgetable. My birthday was so special too. And I triumphed in the English debate…

The days we had to come and go on the dusty road. The military training has faded to me, I have fogotten the sunshine, the sweat and the pain, remain the joy and one person.

In my spanish learning, I am a failer. Maybe at the very beginning I have the same ability as the professional spanish fresher, but now, I realize the gap, a 100% gap. The time is limited, I didn’t have enough time to carry out my favourite. The hope is good, and the plan is perfect, but I can’t let it to come true.

It’s the last day I write my daily in paper in here (Wushan Apartment), maybe I must give it a full stop.

See you next term!!!

In a song and some alarm, my special day began. It’s only a subject remain. But the morning I would have an extra Engineering Drawing class, it’s decided temportary, so it also became the last morning I must get up so early.

The feeling was so strange, though I went to sleep in midnight(1:20AM), yet I almost forgot the painful. Have a good start, and also have a good ending. The sun is still rising, the fog was so thick, all the sign far away was very dim. I didn’t like this fact, but I must accept it, human have no right to control nature.

The teacher was late. Till that time, I didn’t know maybe it would be the last time we met. The Engineering Drawing classes won’t appear to me next term, if nothing is special. How time fly!!! the class was over, and I had drawn for about 2 hours. It’s time to have supper. We were apart, the teaching and be teached had become an history. You know how down I was?

We can meet is a great luck, and the time we must apart also an unbreakable fact. There’s no endless feast.

Hold dear our meet, known each other also a great luck.

实在太好笑了，实在太好玩了！（苦笑，心在流泪）

早上醒来的时候半睡半醒，也不知道自己在干什么，但那些可恶恶心的高数考试题却在脑子里不断地打转再打转，每一道都是那么的清晰，过程真的100%真实，思维更是清楚无比，但我真的不想面对它们啊！Escape? No! You must face to face!!!无奈之下只能清醒自己看英文从而赶走心中的恶魔。太恐怖了，每次考完试之后都会这样子，所以我恨别人对答案，我不想脑子里残留更多那些念头。

如此一个人，好笑啊！

更好玩的陆续有来，下午的英语更是一塌糊涂，辛苦背的35个翻译句子只考了1个，太太太太好玩了！听力更是之中的模糊，从来没有听过质量如此差的听力。杂音多就不用说了，人物的声音更是含糊不清，听到的有时就只有嗡成一团。肯定是从什么教材那里摘下来的，还听到点击电脑的“叮叮”，我的天！！！在听写单词那里整段话一模一样就不用说了，第一次的时候杂音简直和要听的东西对半，第二次的时候居然还说一句停一句，有单词要写的地方停的时间好长好长，第三次质量很好，正常语速，但还会有人欣赏吗？他读这个听力第三部分题目的语速就好慢好慢，就像用没电的录音机播放一样。也许这就是它差劲的先兆吧。

人人考出来都说只能重修。

好笑，好玩啊！！！

Miracle happen, but good or bad? It’s decided by ourselves. The unthinkable things happened again and again.

First, 3:26AM, my ex-serviceman teacher sent a message to me. And something wrong with the message, so after a few minutes, I got the second one, and the third one, all of them were the same. I don’t know why he would appear when I was busy, and made me into embarrassing.

And then, miracle appeared again. The high mathimatic examination was so terrible. At first sight I was open my mouth and couldn’t close for a long time. Too difficult, it’s a horrible dream. All the people who had exam told me the exams were very easy, but… Yesterday, I thought I would make a math miracle today, acturelly, it made me to accept a bad mircale.

Till right now, the third miracle happened. There’s no electric again. I heard some screams at once. In Guangzhou, in such a big city, if often hasn’t electric in my Wushan Apartment. The name doesn’t match the fact at all. However, the good new was it returned to normal after a while.

In a day, three mircales happened, but I never ate kidder eggs!!!

奇迹其实不应该用缔造来形容，因为没有发生过异于寻常，我们说它是奇迹，其实一点都不奇。每一次超越自己的极限，做自己没有做过的事就是奇迹。每个人都是奇迹的缔造者。就像刘翔夺取了男子110米栏的冠军，人人都说他创造了奇迹，但对他自己来说，不是奇迹，是这么多年努力的结果。没有付出，奇迹绝对不会出现。“书中自有黄金屋，书中自有颜如玉”，不劳而获，不可能。奇迹不会发生在没有准备，没有付出的人身上。为了奇迹就要首先付出，就如人们拜神，要神保佑出现奇迹，这其实也是一种物质上和精神上的付出。

以上说了一大段的理论废话，为的却只是无聊，然后引出我要讲的事情。不过虽然无聊但也是头头是道，哲理多少有一点。

昨天复习高数的时候，更准确应该说是在做高数题目的时候，一直不断地听着英文的歌，CD一直不断地换，居然把握全部没有盒子（几块钱一张）的CD全听完了，后来只好开始听有盒子的。一共听了8张CD，一张少说也有一个小时，原来他们见证着我的付出，陪我创造奇迹。

心情也是很重要的，比如说今天就没有昨天那么有心情，同样的时间，同样的地点，同样的事情，同样的人物，但却没有同样的效果，这就是心情。

现在除了害怕，还是害怕，于是不断地听着Take Me to Your Heart来安慰自己，平服心情。对于数学，还是那句——怕怕！当年小学时的自信没有了。曾经扬言要把数学书附录的积分表算出来，没时间了，我知道自己在放假后一定是懒得要死的，因为现在就有懒的苗头。我又夸下了一个海口，一个奇迹成了一个欺骗，一个永远也成不了的现实。

Miracle, 谁不喜欢miracle啊！I am the king of the world! Impossible!!! 这个如果成真就是奇迹。

在土慧六有液体，有像水，人们说是奇迹，但这是事实。如果那里真的有生物，并且真有星球大战，那才是奇迹。其实人类这种求知的行为，和当年西班牙殖民者进入拉美有什么区别？如果发现有生物，必然要拿来研究，这和今天解放60周年的奥斯威辛集中营的恐怖无量医生又有什么区别？然后这又和The X-Files里面的外星人掳走人类做研究有什么区别？只不过外星人是地球人，遭殃的是他们。我们是否要再次殖民统治呢？要研究那里有没有水，其中很重要的一点是想我们有一天能移民过去，但，人类破坏这个地球还不够？要把破坏扩展到太空？印加文明、中国半殖民地半封建……活生生被中断的恐怖历史，还要在人类世界发生？为什么有扩张欲呢？对殖民者来说是新世界的奇迹，对被殖民者来说是奇迹被中断的噩梦，我的天！人类到底在干什么？

为了奇迹，让如此多人物为此付出，值吗？

我没有疯狂，我很正常。明天我就要再创奇迹了，这个奇迹我能制造吗？