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回到家里，说到学习我有两个极端，要不就勤快得自己也不知道自己是不是发疯了，要不就是懒，懒到了极点，满脑子都是该怎么把这个blog的颜色更换掉。我觉得如果有机会真的应该系统地学一下颜色，以前那些美术课的三言两语根本不足以配出真正好看顺眼的颜色，我需要的是更多的理性。用科学而不是纯粹用感觉去搭配网页的颜色。就像用C语言写程序那样理性。大概没有多少人知道世界-中国-广东-广州-SCAU有个叫做xrspook，一个学食品科学与工程的本科女学生在天天写blog，然后经常为那些和她用大缆绳都扯不上的某些电脑技术关系如此密切。女孩们很多都自认是电脑白痴，真的吗？是你们不会还是你们不想？是你们怕麻烦，再加上传统的那些女生学不好这个学科的荒谬预言，你们就甘愿自认“电脑白痴”，老是明明知道该怎么知道怎么处理的问题老是要加上个为什么！我觉得在电脑的问题上是不允许什么撒娇的，这不是那些伪君子，那些沾沾自喜以为自己很厉害的男生炫耀自己的点点“才智”的场所。如果可以的话，女生可以不甘示弱！但可惜，到现在为止，能在电脑上傲视男生的女生我还没有见过。真希望身边出现如此一个女强人！！！！

今天有个网友留言向我请教该如何下载注册Babylon：

这个问题简单得很，只要在www.verycd.com输入Babylon就马上来很好的版本了，要说明一下，Babylon指的是一个多国语言的翻译软件，它可以翻译的语言很多，只要不是很偏门的它都可以应付，但说到对单个词的详细解释当然它是不如很大的金山词霸，因为它的体积只有大概10多MB（包括几个常用的词库），而金山词霸随便个几百MB是很正常的，但金山词霸能翻译法语、德语、西班牙语、俄语、日语、荷兰语、希伯来语、葡萄牙语、意大利语、瑞典语吗？要知道，这里列举出来的只是它的免费词库，还包括付费词库，那里的种类就更那个恐怖了，任何的翻译软件要被它的强大所威吓到吧，以下是eMule的下载地址：
http://lib.verycd.com/2004/09/05/0000019594.html
http://lib.verycd.com/2005/05/08/0000049872.html

自从重装以后就没有把Babylon装上，这次就顺便装上了。也感谢那位朋友的提醒：）

日子，还是安稳地过好，没有压力不一定就没有动力，在没有压力的状态下，xrspook可以走得更深、更远。

想做个专业的学生，但专业不了，一时之间觉得研究和我这个小人物相差那么的近，只有一步之遥，马上就可以触手可及，因为我发现了学校的一个花掉每年几百万去更新的电子数据库。专业就是从那里体现的，中外的宝库的无计可数，我的口水都流得满地了，特别是那些专业的论文，我有很大的兴趣去发掘那些我未曾发现的食品专业知识，我肯定，我一定可以得到很多，但，我现在的处境就像被关在一个黑暗的牢房里，牢房有一堵通向光明世界的玻璃墙，但我却被监禁在墙内，可窥视，不可触及。

http://web.scau.edu.cn/tsg/elect/index.htm

这就是令人垂涎的【华南农业大学图书馆电子资源】好多好多的数据库！！！好多好多的资料，但如果你在校园网以外，你就休想可以访问到！你叫我怎么活！就看着大好机会白白浪费，心痛啊！我真的很想做个小专家，但专家没有资料，专家没有书，你叫人怎么个专起来？老师老是叫我们要多查阅“中国期刊网”，那个东西要钱啊！如果用校园网就不用，因为学校已经为我们支付了这个费用，而如果用校园网上那个东西，还有其他的好多数据库之所以不用钱是因为那些东西给学校开通了固定的IP地址区域，校园网的教育网IP也不过是那一些，ADSL和其他网络运行商和他们就是不一样，于是带着个外网IP，我真的无法访问那些我心爱的数据库。所有的数据库对外都是要收钱的，在著名的http://www.nature.com/一篇完整的论文全文收10多20美金很正常，而在最熟悉不过的很多中国数据库，每页论文的价格就是大概那么0.6元，一篇论文10页很正常，作为一个正常的人根本无法支付得起这个看海量论文的钱袋，所以，学校做了，学校购买了数据库，作为这个学校的一员，我真的很自豪高兴，但令人郁闷到极点的是，它的在校学生并不能访问那么宽广的数据资源。很可惜，真的很可惜！！我真的很想看那些论文的，但没办法，特别是http://www.nature.com/的专业新动态，即使是英文也好，但作为一个普通人，你必须要交昂贵的“学费”！难怪普通人那么难踏足专业，难怪一个穷的外国人就那么难创造那些专业的奇迹。太多太多的门槛了。如果我有一天离开了大学校园，那么我怎么才可以用一个普通人的身份继续专业呢？看来是不可能了：（好悲哀！中国其实是可以创造更多的专业人士的，但如此的环境，不行！就是不行！也许在文科方面还有这个可能，但在那些发展速度超乎寻常的理科、工科、医科就不行，这些科学性的科目需要很大的专业信息量，不是普通一个教程可以解决的，不是一时半刻可以攻克的，更不是一个外行人在胡乱摸索中找到灵感的。学习他们需要很多很多的吸取和积累，但原来，我现在才发现，即使网络如何发展，信息技术如何发达，普通人和他们还是相距很远很远，那些永远是坐在研究室和实验室的专业人士的“玩意儿”，我们甚至连涉足的机会也没有，如非你有大把的钱还有比你的钱还要多的兴趣。总是，对普通人而言，科学秘密继续是科学秘密，就像当年那些炼金术士那样，炼金和普通人就有无可逾越的鸿沟。

对于我们这些在校园网外的小白白，学校是开通了VPN，但我却完全不觉的那个东西有任何的实际用途。http://www1.scau.edu.cn/pub/metc/VPN.htm把设置说得清清楚楚，但实际上呢？除了心痛还是心痛。你上学校图书馆的速度不单没有加快，而且减慢了好多好多。自从那个角落里的两个小电脑现实连接着202.116.160.253的东东在闪动，你会觉得你正在用已经淘汰的“小猫猫”上网，而你2GHz的CPU仿佛变回了586时代了，不用VPN（virtual private network 虚拟专用网络）你还能上的东西一律上不了，比如说不连通VPN的时候http://web.scau.edu.cn/tsg/elect/kns5006.htm还是能连通中国期刊网在SCAU的镜像的，但连上VPN以后，那个网页却变成了“该页无法打开”，除了想哭还是想哭！！！！救命啊！到底那个虚拟专用网络连了些什么？感觉比当年硬用教育网代理的感觉，不过用了VPN比用教育网代理还要痛苦，还要慢，因为可以连的就只有202.116.160.253这个唯一的地址……

老师们依然很喜欢用“中国期刊网”摄取各种信息，也不断推荐我们使用，但你们知道吗？不是我们不想用，是我们用不了。不知道老师的网络和我们的网络有什么不一样，也许他们连入202.116.160.253的账号很特别，所以他们从来没有投诉过那个VPN有问题。谁会理会我们这些草根阶层的感受！我们想去吸收，但没有吸收的门路。你们以为已经给我们开了通向光明的出口，但实际上你们只是拉开了通向光明世界的玻璃墙外面的黑幕，我们看到了曙光，但我们拥有不了，我们还是无法步入光明的世界。

不知道其他高校理科、工科、医科和其他科学性学科的学生有什么感受。不知道其他学校到底是什么体制的，但在华南农业大学，我就吃着这个亏，受着这个罪。我想专业，但真的，我专业不了！

I should have a brand new start, my school should have too! Today is 200-03-02, a new start of March, hope the depress thing flow away and never come back. We live in a peaceful and fortunate place, we should feel love, at the same time learn to love others. Care the people beyond you; try your best to enjoy this colorful life. In other aspect, maybe the world is not so black, and you are not alone, share your feeling, and let’s other step in to your heart. I’m sure that must not so bad. We should learn to trust each other, and believe that they really can help us.

Hope the ones have gone will bless others; persuade them not to fall in the same hole as them. And I also hope the ones who want to follow the bad example that could think again and again. You still have a lot of beautiful dream that haven’t come true, how you can slip away?! If possible, I hope I can give you some courage, don’t give up, tomorrow is another day, and will be better!!!

This morning, I joined the group made by my old brother which call "call lao ye! " It must be heard a little strange; in fact it’s a dialect of Guangzhou. But the true meaning of it, that’s the question, I don’t know how to write it out. It’s a brand new start. I joined this ground, it would be stronger and better, and I think my brother and me in some way are very similar. At first, both of us are Sagittarius. I don’t so believe constellation, but in some style we are the same and that just accord with the character of Sagittarius. So even though I don’t believe, however, the accidental things consciously or unconsciously till happen.

In the second badminton, my teacher declared the way of final examination of this term. Those kinds of movement I don’t know how to describe in English formally, so I’d better not create some words now. Let me check it out and then tell you. It’s a brand new challenge for me and my partner. Just 6 weeks left, we should work hardly from now on.

Have you prepared well to envisage the brand new start?

I don’t know when the end is. This morning, another female postgraduate left our world. I can see, that must be a dark, cold silence morn, however, after that everyone in my school can’t be quintet again. She was the fourth of this semester. Why the evil came and never planned to leave? The professors, the associates and all the tutors here can’t keep calm anymore. University is a place where can educate a man not a place that is suitable to end one’s life! Let’s be moment silence. I’m not a bad heart people, I hope that kinds of thing won’t befell on as again, however, as everybody known that she was the first and was not the last as well. The suggestion of the death is so clear, even though a fool can smell it. Once we didn’t light a fire to get away the dark that has been discovering, there must be devil’s mystery hidden in it. I think just the scientific light can solve that problem; during this time we should have more courage to envisage reality. For a long time, we exert ourselves to flee from it, however, after so much, can we flee still? We can’t flow, we can’t flee, and we have to know how to face.

Depression is a great reason of death. This afternoon, my food microbiology teacher used about 25 minutes talking about the death, and its brother depression. He told us a story that when a person couldn’t walk out of the place where his/her was very familiar in evening, and he/she just could walk a round at that place. That means he/she must have some problems in his/her heart. In fact, the real barrier is not in the dark and can’t be the dark of night, but he/her loses the compass of his/her heart. In short, he/her couldn’t walk out the round in his/her heart. (Let’s talk about mind and heart. Heart emphasizes the emotion; on the other hand mind is most used to describe the logic thought.) His/Her maybe depress, so it’s time to do something.

We are not the God; we don’t have any capability to rob the people from the Death. We are green hands in front of HIV; we are also the green hand in front of suicide. The best way to stop it is to prevent any those thought grow in our mind. Prevention is better than cure, that’s because most of times we just can treat instead of cure, we can’t have confidence that we are surely overcome the enemy of any kind. As a human being, the entire thing we can do is do our utmost to treat it, not cure it.

Jump, jump, jump, hey! Our school is not for jumping from the top of any building. It’s a place which educates people instead of ending one’s life. Dead, Dead, Dead, dad, could you tell me that’s the end?

We had done a great job! We are the winner of the tug of war between 2005 Food 4 and ours (2004 Food 3). We are elder than them, we should win, and from the shape and size of us, we would win. In my opinion, we had no reason that we would fail in this war! At last, as a think, the Goddess of victory came to our side, however, which beyond my thought was that the real victory was more hardly than ideal.

Before the tug of war, I thought we would be sure win, yet it’s far from so easy. Maybe, no only me but some of my classmates thought the opponent was small potato that we could win without any hard working, so we didn’t pay all our attention at the first round. The first round beyond my thought, we had a standoff with our opponent. We would have three rounds match, which team wins two of them and that’s the winner. If two team didn’t have win or fail in 30 seconds, that means deadlock. A standoff will be judged.

We had better players, we should have more confident, why we would miss the first round, the Goddess came and went, and in some time, she even wanted to help our opponent, however, we reseized the initiative, and won at the second and the third rounds. We now had promoted in the next round, the opponent in future must be stronger. Hope we can be strong when we meet the stronger opponent, and win the champion at last :) Could you imagine when we win after two rounds how happy we were? We all handed up, shouting and cheering, just like the champion crown had on our head. That’s the power of us, the power of our comity. We had done a great job! Who had helping us? No one except ourselves! I can feel the glory that I am part of this collective. They can cheer me up, when you are down; they can share my happiness because I am one of them. Thank you very much; you give me strong hug in such damp cold raining day. With you, we all can confront any difficulty. Thank you a million!

And today 02-28 also a special day in my calendar — the birthday of JEA (exactly, 02-28 is not his birthday, he was born on 1968-02-29. It’s a leap year, and he was born on the leap day. So when he was born, all the people had to celebrate his birthday on 02-28, except the leap year I think. What a poor guy! How could he born on 02-29! What a lucky guy! Many fans including me celebrate such important day for him every year. ) And this is the forum of his birthday: FELIZ CUMPLEAÑOS JORGE ENRIQUE, as part of fans, how can I did nothing, so I had participated, if you are his fans too, you should also show something now, vamos!

So today really a very special day! We won the tug of war, and JEA won the heart of his fans :))))