我的天

今天妈和我说起一个我幼儿园和小学同学的故事，好令人心酸。到今天我才知道他是一个多么痛苦的人。

6个月大爸爸就因工伤去世了，然后妈妈改嫁，继父也带着一个姐姐。他则被他的继父和姐姐小看（和欺负，欺负是我觉得的，能不被欺负吗，小看的结果就是欺负）。只要他妈不在，只有他和继父在一起的时候就没有吃的，两个人就吃个鸡蛋搞定一顿。但他很懂事，当妈回来是问他吃饭了没有的时候，他总是把一切的痛苦留给自己，对妈说白色的谎言“吃了”。多年来都是这样……

在我新心目中，他也不过是一个很普通的同学。他妈和我妈是工友，有时我们到工厂吃饭的时候，我们就一同去。从他平时的表现说真的，我真的一直也不知道他是个单亲孩子（虽然说有个爸爸，但那个叫做爸爸的东西简直可以忽略不计，甚至我觉得没有比有好多了）。我还清晰地记得，他的字写得很正规，所以写字速度也很慢，有些和普通男孩子不同的地方就是他好像比“软”。想想也知道，在如此的环境下生活，他要么就是个火气筒要么就只能默默忍受。我不知道这么些年他是怎么熬过来的。有点不可思议。

说回他的家庭。他的姐姐和他读的是同一个小学。很小就是什么大队委之类的人物，但升初中的时候就差3分进不了推荐线，然后学校就硬给她一个“市三好学生”（其实这个头衔我也有，而且一个是“市三好学生”一个是“市三好学生干部”，但当我得到了以后我就知道其实那些东西是很假的，听起来很好听，但实际上是内定的）于是就危颤颤地进了广州市第五中学（我的小学的地段所能推荐的最好的学校，对于小学时的我来说，五中已经是很好很好学校的代表了，但现在看来，那个中学也不过如此，我完全鄙视那个东西。还记得升高中的时候，我爸和当时五中的校长同是华师的同学，于是我把就对他说希望如果可以的话帮帮我，但那个嚣张的校长一听到我读的是广州市一零八中学就很不屑，因为要在一零八考进五中几乎是不可能的！他对着我爸哼了一声。从那开始，我就发誓，即使我去读职中我也绝对不报五中！结果升中考试出来了，我的成绩出来了，663（当年用标准分计算），650以上就已经算是广州市的优秀生了，连当年最高分录取的执信也不过要658，而那个狗屁五中则只要大概580。而且初三那年，我拿了市三好学生，理论上是录取学校还要降10分录取的，现在不用了，我什么都不需要，靠自己的力量就已经可以进哪里都可以了！）而他的姐姐初中进了五中以后就开始一直请人补习，升高中的时候危颤颤地进回了五中，高中就更加是补习补习，升大学的时候也危颤颤地过了本科线，进了广州大学。就这样补习补习，也补了个狗屁出来。她有什么资格看不起自己的不是亲生的弟弟！！！！我超级瞧不起她！！！！！！！！！

不息需要钱，而他们的家景有不能说特别好。他妈又是个好人，必然会尽心尽力地付出。他妈也心痛自己的儿子。妈和其他工友曾经劝他妈要留一手，为了儿子要留一点，不要什么都贡献出去了，但……

他如今已经是花园酒店西餐部的服务生，而且已经升了一级。从旅游职中出来他就走上了如此一条路。他告诉他妈他不想读书了，他要出来赚钱。如果他继续读下去的话只会招来更多的冷眼。因为相比之下，学习他不如姐姐。但他的待遇又何尝比得上姐姐。出来工作似乎是个解脱的途径。

和他妈一样，他很善良。你可以说他很懦弱，但我却觉得他很会忍耐！但他的忍耐有时似乎太多了，他也应该适时爆发一下。他是个听话的孩子，为了妈能好过一点，为了家庭能维护所谓的“安定”他把一切都承受过去了。你能说他是懦弱，但我觉得能做到这样的是真丈夫！

从来没想过身边的人一直处于如此的境地。我们不该埋怨自己的日子如何的痛苦，将心比心，你会觉得其实你很-幸-福！！！

今天又上了一段十分实际的课——科研方法(文献检索)。这是我上的课中除了在实验室里的实验课以外最实际的。这个课对我一辈子都很有用，无论我是要做一个科学家还是要做一个小公司的小小职员。它教会人的是如何大浪淘金，如何找到你需要的资料。这比你在搜索引擎找你需要的资料难度大得多，作为一个老练的科研工作者你需要知道如何找到你需要的东西，你需要不断调整你的搜索策略。当然，在课堂上我们不说搜索，我们用的词语是“检索”。

但有很多同学认为这个课不重要，于是做作业的做作业，聊天的聊天，结果就是到用电脑的时候老是问这问那，连最最简单的问题都要问。这个现象在女同学中犹为严重。为什么很多女同学会自称“电脑白痴”，我想这就是其中的原因所在。上这个课比一个真正的专业课也许对你的帮助大得多，因为这个技巧可以应用于任何一个行业，只要有电脑，哪里都需要这个技巧！！！

就如今天说的关键词和叙词，它们有着本质的区别。能准确地运用叙词进行检索简直可以说是可以事半功倍！关键词，一个不加规范的词语，是作者自己认为自己的文章什么关键就抽取的词语。叙词，一个有规范的词语，是一些同义词的综合，如果你输入的词语是准确的叙词的同义词那么你检索到的信息大概就只有用叙词的那么N份之一。叙词是个规范的语言，但不是说我们这些普通人就必须掌握，那通常是那些从事图书管理的人必修课程。但作为一个专业的学生，我们很有必要知道一些有关我们专业的叙词。因为叙词检索出来的信息量往往是很多很多关键词的总和。对于外文的检索系统是配有个词语查找系统，从而找出你要找的词语是不是叙词，或者从你的词语那里指引你找到正确的叙词。但在中文的搜索系统在这方面还是不完善。

检索远远不是输入个词语，然后显示出你要的资料的过程。我们真正要掌握的是一个检索的策略！如何做到快、准、多，真的是个好高深的学问。

老师今天也给了我们一个很现实的建议——长期不间断看一本专业的期刊！能做到这样真的十分十分的好！期刊的更新速度比书快多了，要等那个理论印到书上那个理论就不是新理论了，广告学的老师说过“今天的新闻是黄金,昨天的新闻是废纸,前天的新闻是垃圾。”等到老师上课讲的那个知识就已经不是科学的前沿了！要建立一流的大学，要有一流的成果，首先学生和老师就要有一流的思想。每个事情都要等到全世界都知道了，流行过了，已经成为旧闻了你们才恍然大悟，才来兴起，才来风行，太迟了！

你们会追着一个明星，把他/她的一个专辑，一个电视剧，一部电影，一个新闻一个动作，甚至是杂志上的一个照片都不放过，那么你们怎么就不能把这个锲而不舍的精神用在科研上？！如果真的有如此的韧劲，如此的恒心，中国的科学还会如此落后？！还记得自己为了一个明星，把搜索引擎的资料差不多条条打开到大概800条，直到那个信息再也不属于我要找的人。为什么就不能把这股牛脾气用在真正的学习上？！我觉得，我是可以做到的。能追着一个十分十分长气的电视剧不放，我也可以紧咬着一个专业杂志！能在娱乐界找到快乐的地方我为什么就不能在专业的地方找到快乐！你们老是说做研究是枯燥的，难道一天看着别人编的故事你就不觉得闷！我是“初生之犊不怕虎”，我还不知道专业的枯燥是个什么滋味。但在我到现在为止的字典里从来就没有出现过对某个事物感到“烦闷、枯燥”。

不要把自己想得太白痴了，也不要以为专业太高深了，其实你已经来到了专业的门口，里面对你来说漆黑一片，你需要亲自去探索。路就在前方！

I can’t understand why there will be so many pains exist，even though when you pay all your heart in it. In my opinion, they’re lying, because I will feel nothing if I lose all my heart in something. Maybe after that, the pain will strike me severely, for I don’t know when to stop.

It’s the characteristic that they do everything effectively, and they hate others do some thing that will waste time. They don’t like wait, however, they are too quick, and so they have to wait in many situation. Sometimes I think I can’t stand anymore that in such a low speed, yet the real life tells me I have to do it again and again. I don’t like pour out my feeling to others, because I’m afraid whether it will hurt them unconsciously. My words always sting something, but I really didn’t mean to. I can keep quiet more than your imagination, because I don’t want to speak and I don’t know what I should speak.

Every Thursday, each badminton classes, I can’t have a good end. I don’t how would she have so may pain. From head to toe, perhaps some new pains will exist next time. I really had no moon to play with such a partner. From my point of view, her heart had gone away. You can’t make up any enthusiasm with her. So I kept silence, even though I spoke to her, she just would became more down. She didn’t know how to cheer herself up, instead of was good at make herself more and more down. I’m sure that, in that situation, she was not enjoying badminton a bit. Can’t we enjoy it?! Why in such low emotion all the time?

I hate this low emotion!!!!!

A whole day (about 12 hours) in laboratory! I am almost crazy now! I really had a good beginning; however I couldn’t keep the luck to the end. Maybe the gray weather and the little cold air affected me. I don’t know what happened, I have repeated this log for three time, just because some little impossible mistakes.

This morning, we did our food microbiology experiment first. That’s funny, and perhaps I used all my luck at that time. Our class was divided into 8 teams, and I am in team 6. Our teacher separated 3 missions to us, and my team did the easiest one. We just needed to scale the powder of culture medium which is called Gause’s Synthetic Agar, and then dissolved it completely in boiling water, at last moved the liquid into flask and encapsulated it, that’s all! Compared with others, we were the most effortless! They should scale a lot of material and then cooked them for a long time. I never expected I would have such a pressure beginning in food microbiology experiment.

After that, we went to search some information about our papers of food in floor three. That’s the most unfortunately time today, my flash disk was infected by computer virus! I had never had such experience before! Just now, my Kaspersky Anti-Virus had killed it. It’s a Trojan virus. The phenomenon of infected this virus is that there will be a .txt files in your flash disk, however, you can’t open it, and when you deleted it, it will appear again, and in others names! Those names are all some sensitive words. And I even wanted to format the disk to remove the entire virus, but it didn’t work! Just Anti-Virus software can solve such problem.

The food chemistry experiment in afternoon was terrible. Most of the time, we were waiting, I waited our life in that classroom, I don’t’ think that can be a good feeling.

I should stop now; I should have a good rest, and then face my two experiment reports!

I am not familiar with this topic at all, and I don’t have any interesting in it, however, no matter I love it or not, the composition of CET-4 will come out in its own way. I’m not the teacher who designs the test paper, all the thing I could do is exert myself to adjust to it. After the English classes this afternoon, I suddenly realize one thing that during the examination, when finish my compositions, the only thing I should do it do my best to show my fluent beautiful English instead of my creative mind. Even though the thought is out-of-date that won’t have any problem. The composition of CET-4 is not a stage for me to show time my idea. I should completely understand this important point. I’m just a plain Jane with new idea, but a super star with wonderful sentence. There are a great difference between writing English and speaking English, and now I should tell them apart. Composition in CET-4 is a platform to show excellence words, so my hard workings in vocabulary are meaningful now.

I have hate imitate essay since I were a pupil. In my opinion, imitate other’s articles just like thieve their fortune. Still remember when I was a little child, my parents always asked me to "imitate" others’ good words or wonderful sentences (of course, just in Chinese not in English, for they don’t know English at all). I did my best to revolt against those kinds of behavior. I even seared that I wouldn’t do that thing all my life. Nevertheless, I have to eat my words now. If I want to write a wonderful essay composition in the CET-4 that’s not far away, I should do more imitating. I should improve my ugly writing English in this way. From now on, composition is not only a way to release my feeling, but also a sword to win more awards in the furious battle. I don’t mean to do such thing, but I’m very sorry, I have to. Please forgive me.

From this line, I have to do some revolution, and today I will imitate the first paragraph of The Telecommunications Revolution (New Horizon College English 4, Unit 4, Section A) with the main idea of subway in Guangzhou:

I think you can easily pick out the sentence from the original and mine. That’s the difference of professor and everyman. Maybe it’s time for me to consult some problem from my teacher.

Revolution must be continuous!!!!!!!!!