我的天

Sometimes I would ask myself what’s the difference between others and me. Now, I think I have gotten a temporary final answer – perseverance, which combine with courage would lead to success. Yet in many situations, I just obtain the right hand (persistence), but lose the other (confidence). That’s OK, because I’m an ordinary people, the one with many kinds of shorts.

A quarter to an hour ago, I saw a program about intelligence children. The IQ of them are more than 130, so they should be out of others in theory, however, the roads of them are so different too. In fact, some of them have done a great job, yet another just return to an everyman. Someone will say the genius’ killer is the out of date policy, but I don’t think so. The reason that stars fall from the sky is they commite suicide. None could help the one without ambitious to become difference, so if a genius failed, hadn’t they have some struggle before? I’m not a genius from head to toe, for this I never expect to win without hard working.

Just like everybody else, I’m the unique one. One ovum and one sperm met by chance, and combined together, after developed, that cell formed me. Birthed in 1985, and cultivated in my family and schools. Till now, no one could redial the time; consequently even the God couldn’t copy another me.

Unique me have my own strongpoint, needn’t envy others, let your arm to fire the best, you already triumph.

After some weeks in school, now I have be accustomed myself to sleep earlier (at about 12:00AM) and wake up at about 7:45AM. That can be a habit; it’s great, so the day seems longer now, yet the time of wasted is shorter conversely.

The day in math is terrible, you will be crazy because be strapped in one problem. Even at that situation you should be more imperturbable, so in my opinion, autumn and winter are the best seasons for math problems solving; now it’s the right time. Nobody expects to be in math trouble including me, of course except for the experts in that fields, they must enjoy fling themselves in their beloved subject. Fall in love with one’s interesting is fortunate, however the road is full of rough time instead, so have confident to challenge the barrier, and get a triumph would be more valuable to me.

This morning I have enjoyed high speed of download because of get up early. The average download speed of Pando was up to 200KB/s, maybe the highest download speed of P2P software in ADSL. I really hope this amazing could continue tomorrow morning, yet the larger hope I keep, the bigger disappointment I could have to stand. For this, just have an everyday dream maybe keep me happy.

I didn’t write in English for a long time, even be afraid to start. It’s blank in my mind; I don’t know what should say and whether I could finish the topic. After the first stride, trouble would seem not as serious as we expected. I will appreciate the old xrspook in 2004-2005, how could I write English diary from Sunday to Thursday? I do lose ability in English thinking. Oh~~~~~

终于把《线性代数》告一段落，开始《高等数学》之旅。高数，拿起那本书仿佛让我年轻起来，我第一次接触它们的时候我才大一，风华正茂，书本开始时讲述的内容更是与高中时的函数内容息息相关。当时我还是个大学新手，一个小妹妹而已。高数，一门很重点且历年来都不容易啃的骨头，每个学期的学分都占到4个，是我学的课程中占学分数最多的课程之一。然而，那些“初吻”高数的日子已成往事，无论成功失败与否，我也得重新开始，使出浑身解数再次驾驭那匹棘手的野马。

今天又去笨牛进帐了2本书，共25.5元。为了这个考研我已经买了不下100元的书了。已经跳进了坑里，我只能志在必得，拿下这战役了。

在笨牛的时候遇到2个说普通话风格很北方的男生。他们风风火火地来到卖考研书那里，立刻把正在那里看书找书的我挤到了一边。他们在最显眼的2排书架很随意地扫了一下就在那里嚷嚷说那里没有“数一”的书，屁呢！怎么没有，从考纲解释到真题或复习全书，都有数一的，而且剩下的数量还不少，他们的什么眼睛啊！！！他们看了不到10秒就对着小店老板嚷嚷说没有数一的，这时收钱的是阿伯，也许他对书架现存的书不太熟悉，所以他只推搪说下午就有，如果是那个哥哥看档的话，肯定一下子挑出N多本数一来。我是看在眼里，笑在心里，那些不带眼睛的人我没必要插嘴说话。真正缺货的应该是数二的书，因为大多人数学是考数二的，所以书架上几个品种的数中数二的书都已经缺货或面临缺货。对老板我还是有信心的，我相信他们会有办法进货回来。

特意买了本新东方的考研词汇书，是按词频排序的，在熟练完成自己打印的十多页的高频单词以后我决定以sunfruitfish的方法把那小型红宝书过几遍。那是过GRE的方法，也是补救我这个记忆有问题的人的方法。小红宝书的每个单词有记忆方法，包括斜门记忆法和词缀记忆法，得尝试一下，突破一下。

离2008研究生入学统一考试（初试）满打满算还有4个月，我已经嗅到了火药的味道了！

花了3个星期终于看完了Saving Private Ryan，因为中间没有看，上截是在上上个星期五看的，今天接着完成下半截。说实在，我真的不怎么着迷这电影，它击不起我强烈的共鸣。美国大兵的电影除了精彩的特效，在处理一些细微的感情上似乎有点粗糙。Tom Hanks，他似乎对我来说永远属于那个经典的阿甘。大概长期以来的沉浸，让我把美国电影和神奇故事画上了约等号。当他们说起战争中普通小兵的感情的时候，而且篇幅极少的时候，我的脑子里就只留下了不停的枪炮声。

早上起来看电脑，正忙着上网，突然，黑屏，只见显示器电源在闪红灯，主机在不停地长哔~~~。当时第一反应就是马上长按主机电源把它关了，因为还有2个同学在睡觉。安心地做起了英语阅读，除了这样还能怎样，根本无法立即再做试验，以防那东西又叫。终于，在1个多小时之后，同学都起来了，于是我也刚完成了一个unit的阅读。再次开机的时候也挺正常的，但开机时的滴就响了两次，安全进入了正常界面，当再次打开浏览器时，噢~~~再次黑屏长哔。95%我肯定是那个内存有尘。好不容易把尘堆中的主机搬出来，在打开机箱的时候我有98%认为是尘惹的祸。真的好多尘！当我把内存条拔出来的时候发现“金手指”上有一条的尘，这般状况也能开机，强！擦干净内存，拿个吹风机吹吹内存槽和其它地方，真的好大尘！在CPU的周围尤为多！！！虽然被尘所包围，但这个机子真的很漂亮，主板很漂亮，显卡更漂亮，当然啦，这是相对于我家里那台而言，家里那台比学校这台老2年。机子清洁完毕，把放主机及其附近位置也清洁一番。插回所有线后，开机，没事，果然是尘惹的祸。

明天又星期五了，又过了一星期，时间在以光速前进啊！

白天阳光灿烂，晚上凉风阵阵，我似乎感觉到了秋天的味道。

虽然上课的时候还得开着空调，虽然吃饭的时候还得寻找饭堂里的空调位置，虽然还去游泳，虽然，虽然，虽然，但，秋天可能真的来了。广州的秋天不会有北京香山的红叶纷飞，广州的秋天暂时还不用穿长袖衫，广州的秋天没有传统秋天所应该有的很多，但这就是广州。能不把电扇放一旁不用，不用经常汗流浃背这就是好事。广州的秋天就是这般悄然无声。

已经没在电脑上看电影电视好像很久了，在宿舍的电脑旁我就似乎只会潜心于数学和英语。电脑呢，则是用来上网和看文献写计划什么的。时间对我来说又加速了不少，尽管一天睡7个小时，但余下的17个小时很不好使，眨眼就过了。大四，厌倦了老师说的某些东西，一些老是重复的话语我总会选择性透过，或者用别的方法控制自己的脑袋以免音波的进入。在课上看别的东西小时候一定觉得很愧疚，但现在已经变得理所当然。老师从高不可攀的位置下降到一个我习惯审视他/她的地位，老师不是完美的，不能尽信。不是所有老师都被我崇拜。

秋天是个成熟的季节，这一年，我收获了什么呢？