2004-11
21

First Test in New Place

By xrspook @ 22:52:19 归类于: 想当年的作业

Today I have my first really test in South China Agriculture University. It's an English quiz. The first study's test I can say I failed.

The mark is bad. I haven't imagined I would get such a result. I am upset now. Maybe I am the hardest one in my room, but te result is the third, it means the second on the upside down.

I can't complain anyone or anything. The mark show my real level. I have done my best to recite the new words and phrases & expressions by heart. I am sure, just except a couple of words, I had recite all the words skilled. And at this time, I proved a sentence said by "Longge"-"Don't hope the things you don't know won't appear in the test paper. or you must fail." (Longge is one of my math teachers) I failed at this point. I don't know clearly the meaning of "allow for", but it appeared. I promise I will make everything clearly, it's unworthy failing in such situation.

I will recite the new words and phrases when the unit is learning, I won't just a few days before the test start my reciting, never!

The weak point of mine is my translation, no matter Chinese to English or English to Chinese. But all this sentences of translation question came from my textbook. I swear I won't miss a half in future. Recite some meaningful and powerful English sentence. Though in this test paper, the correcting person isn't very justin to me. So my achievement isjust 1.5 points lower than the highest one in my room. Or you can say it isn't a distant at all. But my aid isn't her, but all the classmates in my class, all the students n SCAU, all the people in Guangzhou. I must the best so I can let my dream come true,72.5 can't satisfy me forever! Do I just have that ability? I am not the best and also not the worst, but this time, I can't stand!!! I can fail in any subjects, but English, I can't fail a little, I must the best, if I must go to foreign country. If I can't learn a foreign language well, how can I be good at another one?!

It's time for me to do my best in English!!! Maybe half an hour ago, I didn't feel well, but from this second, I will change all the upset and angry into energy, become a powerful man! (Write article is great thing to let me speak up an dto relax myself, how great it is!)

2004-11
13

Time for Me to Change

By xrspook @ 22:51:00 归类于: 想当年的作业

When I read the lesson "How to Make a Good Impression", I know I have many places to change. To change my action, change my attitude, change my way of speak… All the things I must change, if I want to be a succeeful man. The behavious of mine are so terrible, it means I am not polite, though I am a girl, but it seems I am just a rule man.

The biggest thing I must change is my self-centre thought. It is not exit when I was young, but as I am grown up, the lonely day became more and more, and I didn't communicate with many people. I often stay in a place, keep silence, watch others but having no words to say. Too many time of solitude made my self-centre, because at that time, I didn't need to think about others. The only thing I care is myself.

I say "I" to often! Or you can say I think about myself too often . I often just focus on my own problems. Others' things are none of m business. I complain frequentlky, because of a tiny problem I will complain all day. Because of a cloudy day, because of some meetings, because of money problem, because I don't know how to finish my homework, because… Everday, everytime, everywhere I will complain, no matter who I complain to. Maybe I just moan in a little voice, more often I yell to others. My emotion is so strange, it not only drives myself crazy but also dirives others mad. In fact, I just take serious and I am no good at showing my feeling, so I express my feeling in a volient way, but the poor thing is only my good friends know this. I can control in my heart, but I can't control my actions either, that's my problem.

This horrible habit formed when I was in middle school, because of an unforgetable basketball match. In that match my class lost, but we couldn't stand the fact, we cried and started my first complain. From then on, my complains are just like the water in Changjiang River, can't stop, and became more and more frequently.

I have two pole of my emotion: silence and complain. I think I can change this situation, but I won't. The environment stay still, how cna I change myself?

The social won't let my naughty, and I don't want to be the strangest one. The own style of life is good, but if it's too many, it means naughty or cant't be liked. Hope I can change, it's the right time for me to change.

2004-11
7

Feeling of Waiting for the Barbarians(publish on weekend)

By xrspook @ 12:55:46 归类于: 想当年的作业

J.M. Coetzee writes waiting for the barbariass. He is a famous writer of South Africa. Last year, he got the Nobel Prize of literature. Reading his books is by chance. Because this year some of his books were published in China widely, and I know he is not an ordinary writer, no only write some simple life and landscape, his books are all meaningful, need to be chewed.

 

I like the Colombia writer Garcia Marquez’s books very much. One Hundred Year of Solitude is my most love book. This book has its deep, need us to chew it carefully. At first, you will feel very funny, but as the story went on, you will fall into deeply thinking, at last, you will have a strong echo in your heart, you almost feel cannot help but be sad for the hero.

 

Waiting for The Barbarians gives me the same feeling. The main role of the book is not the real hero, or you can say he is not the traditional hero. Though in many form and thought he is strange, he was right and stand for justice, at the same time, in some parts of him show he just a useless man, a rubbish, also you will very hate him. Because his in capable and despicable. (Sex, I think is not a very guilty thing in foreign country, at least in South Africa and Colombia, they show me that it just a human normal needing, and not be afraid to talk about it) Of course, read those books are not for those things. If use a Chinese thinking method to decide, the protagonist just a normal person, and the writer in China won’t write such a story, because they think Chinese used to super hero, and all the protagonist must perfect. But I think we need a vivid person not a dream person, a god! The writers in China can’t find out such a race problem, and they don’t want to talk about the social in fiction, I think it is a big problem.

 

From the book, I find a really vivid person. Though he is a very strange and has different kinds of contradiction, all his thought are most different from others (the person are written in that book).

 

The main ideas of that book show some social problems to us in its special way. Through the curious and pure imagine story, we don’t just see the distorted imagine world, and unthinkable person but we saw another part of our really world and maybe can see ourselves or our friends. The people are all unimaginable, but it really happens around us. The book as a mirror lets us see our world and ourselves. It’s the power of literature. A story came out are not just for amuse, let people waste their time easily, they must show some big problems, but now from directly taking punitive action against, it use its tactful way.

 

Waiting for The Barbarians show us the problem of civilization and barbarous. What’s civilization? Who are barbarians? Why need to wait for them? The writer did not give us a certain answer, but after reading, you will be surely hold your believe.

 

Because of some social problems that people can’t explain, they make out barbarians. Because of solving these barbarians they catch some innocent herdsman, put the entire criminal on them use ferocious ay punish them. For the social problem hadn’t been solved yet in such wrong way, they have to catch more innocent people to perform their duty perfunctorily. Barbarians became the representative crime. The protagonist is an administrator; also because of his strange and useless activity, he became a prisoner, and then suffers terrible beat up and unthinkable torture. At last, annihilate barbarians certainly can’t success. The armies of destroy barbarians because of plenty of nature reason (nature reasons are all made by themselves, such as desert and can’t find water). Nature and themselves broke down the unbreakable army instead of the dummy barbarians. This story didn’t have a clear ending, when I read the last sentence, the story still go on in my mind, the villages’ future and the administrator’s life. It’s made me have a very big association. I can’t forget them in a long time; I think a lot of things. The ugly part of the really world, suddenly I know the modern world terrible crisis I have duty to do something for the whole world, also I feel I’m tiny, maybe all the things I have done are do not impact anything. I want to change, but I can’t become the second protagonist.

 

The most moving me part is the description of the details of beating and the terrible torture. They are so real, just like the bloody things happen in front of me. All the wounds are so clear, the cause of them are descript, you almost can feel that pain. The way of J.M Coetzee descript of these things are so different from others. He uses the first person, but others usually uses the third person, the angle is so different, and make me have real feeling. I am present on the spot, become a part of the story, suffer the things, I can’t say the feeling words, but I really feel it.

 

J.Z Coetzee is so great! The social need such person to let us know the weak point. That’s the really “applications of literature ”, ordinary personnel to wake up from sleeping emptiness.

2004-10
31

What Life A College Freshman has!!!(Ⅱ)(publish on weekend)

By xrspook @ 10:47:41 归类于: 想当年的作业

The most things I can't bear is that the College of Food and Science can't allow all the freshman to bring computer the first year. What rule is that! How can they do so! Because they afraid the freshman can't control them will lose their heart in surf online or play computer games. But even though the freshman can't control, will they affirm the old students can control? How funny this answer is! Even in Senior Three, I still surf online, but now my life is …

After Final Examination, I used to write my dairy online. Everyday whatever it is difficult, I will stick to write. A lot of student do that, that kind of thing called "blog"(a shared on-line journal where people can post diary entries about their personal experiences and hobbies; a daily written record of (usually personal) experiences and observations), when I start my first essay I had swear to myself, I must continual to do this, no matter how difficulty I met. I don't want to break my commitment, eat my words! But the real life tell me, you can't! Every weekend I have to go home and type my dailies into computer, I have to type five passage or more! Terrible! How much time I have to spend! And how boring it is! But if I do it everyday, I just need to use 15 minutes. The big problem is that I have no computer. When I didn't start my blog, I didn't like writing or communicating at all. But now, because of blog, I completely changed. Now my blog has more than 200 essays, all of that narrate my colorful life. That's my valuable memory. It evidence my grown up. If I still do it all my life, think about it, after 30 years or more, I pick it up and review, what feeling I will have? Or you will say, just a daily, why not just write in papers? Because write them on blog, your experience can share with many more people. Sharing your life with other, isn't good? And your experiences maybe really can help others, your knowledge need us to share. If we know share, our life will become more comfortable.

The thing I can't bear is that, why the South China Agricultural University must separate the web in China and in foreign countries? If I want to surf the web of foreign country I have to have special request, and have to pay more, why? Internet, what's the meaning of Internet? (Internet [the meaning from Oxford Advanced Learner's English-Chinese Dictionary-Extended fourth edition]: international computer network, which consist of a large number of individual computers and computer systems, connected by telecommunications circuits.国际互联网,因特网) But in our school, can it be international? Some people said the students in South China Agricultural University are old style person. Now maybe I know the reason. Because of too less chances to communicate with the world. Even we are agricultural school, but why can't we change the "Tu Bao Zi" called? I think the first step we must change the thought of the leading group.

Though I just a girl, and my course is Food and Science. I am still be eager to have computer and can surf in foreign website. It just a little request why not comes true??? I am an adult, but why not believe me??? The entire computer projects just become a cat with gloves. In a word, it broke my heart.

2004-10
24

What Life A College Freshman has!!!(Ⅰ)(publish on weekend)

By xrspook @ 9:38:56 归类于: 想当年的作业

When I was a high school student, I was very eager to be a college student, in my opinion, they would have more free time, they could control their lives, as they liked. But the fact tells me; it’s just a beautiful.

As a freshman of Food and Science, I have to face my life very hard. I have 33 classes a week, but others just have 20 or less. Everyday the only thing I can do is having class, previewing and reviewing lessons, do my homework. I even don’t have a free time to do my favorite thing-learning Spanish. When I found no time to satisfy my basic need- every night has to go to bed at 12:00, but other said they were very bored, because of too less classes. These words just like a heavy sinker knock on me, why we are so different? Everyday I go to have class with morning sun shine, they are playing, every night in the dark I have to sit at the desk to finish my homework or preview and review my lessons, they are still playing. I cry, because of too many classes, they cry too, but for too few classes. For me, be fortunate or not?

I always tell myself, you must face the music; easy job won’t instead of my college lessons. I just can live in misery; I don’t know whether I will famous or just a common person. I have no choices. Now I know all the happiness in read comprehension and in others’ words are lies, whether they are true or not to others I don’t know, but to me, all of those are just white lies, never come true. In my dream, the college life is heaven, but actually it is just an endless hell.

What life I have now!!! (To be continual)

 

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